TORTURe

how long can i bear with this chronic low red blood cell count torture? very min feel like going to faint...

i wish i wish to take a break from work n rest for months to gain back wat was lost. But it is impossible. There will be more disaster back at home only. Nobody nobody bother what will happen to me. they will only say 'take care' and that's it. Every month this ATM will still have to work. The one running away from reality never come back again n will give more prob if i rise my prob.

To certain extend, i blame him actually. Cos if two pax shoulder the responsibility well, i think i dun have to slog like hell over the yrs. but selfish heart wanna pursue own interest at my expense.

How long how long must i should the major responsibility?

actually i think it all crap if they tell me to 'take care'

haa, such dark side of me. But tmr when i wake up, the routine will continue n my laughter will shine again :)