走了一段路，走着走着，尽然迷失了方向。
下一步，怎么走，黯然模糊
电话那一端，草草的挂了
心忽然一阵痛
从几何时。。。重复以前的情景
Saturday, August 30, 2008
Thursday, August 28, 2008
reason or excuse?
Should it be that watever you do there must be a reason to support it?
Dun understand when someone said i have alot of reasons for doing sth.
Well, there must always a reason or justification why u r doing something mah
It was a struggle for months.. tryin to weigh the decisions so i can be convinced y i continue or jus take another break.
Life flashed back, i actually did kind of gain many yrs of my life glowing (dun talk about marriage though). Rem vividly doc asked me to give up studies if i wan back health. I braved through 5 yrs to do my diploma; yrs of tears n pain. Then did my degree while working and then finally flourished in career. Those if i have not persisted i can never make it. But it also costs my health badly. The days whr i had only a loaf of bread for a week. Took office biscuits for lunch and then a $0.50 fried mee at Poly...
Every decision on what to spend for each cent.....
So to tie things up, now u noe why i will ensure every action i take there is reason and enough to convince myself...
So it is time to rest. There will be noises as not many ppl understand but like to give comment. Like i was sharing with dear... nobody even own kin can understand what you going through cos body is yours, health is yours, pain is yours
Wednesday, August 27, 2008
A long break
Yeah, decided and will proceed to take a long break.
Months of hesitating but it seemed will be a better choice than juggling work and then fighting against the whatever sudden attack. Often made both work and health suffered together.
希望休息是真的可以走更远的路
Months of hesitating but it seemed will be a better choice than juggling work and then fighting against the whatever sudden attack. Often made both work and health suffered together.
希望休息是真的可以走更远的路
Friday, August 22, 2008
tire tire
喔 我已不知道
好久不见你好不好
我已不知道是否你已经忘掉喔
Sweet Heart 你可知道这些日子我并不好
寂寞的影子已经疲倦的说 我累了
曾经有的梦像刺激的冒险一般
我已太累了不再是幻想的小孩
喔 那些曾经有的爱像无聊的童话一般
我已太累了不再是无知的小孩
This song was by Annie Wu (Yi Neng Jing). I like the lyrics and the tune. Only that everyone kept saying she cant sing. Actually this woman though act cute,she really good with pen n know wat she wanna...
好久不见你好不好
我已不知道是否你已经忘掉喔
Sweet Heart 你可知道这些日子我并不好
寂寞的影子已经疲倦的说 我累了
曾经有的梦像刺激的冒险一般
我已太累了不再是幻想的小孩
喔 那些曾经有的爱像无聊的童话一般
我已太累了不再是无知的小孩
This song was by Annie Wu (Yi Neng Jing). I like the lyrics and the tune. Only that everyone kept saying she cant sing. Actually this woman though act cute,she really good with pen n know wat she wanna...
Monday, August 18, 2008
Sunday, August 17, 2008
Woohoo!
Ytd went for RBC count test again with fingers crossed.
The results was so encouraging. It moved from 9.8 to 11.1! waahahahahahhahahahah
The doctor 'shamelessly' boasted that her iron tablets did the magic. I was kind enough to let her finish her victory talk. then i told her 'sorry i only took one or twice. Told you i cannot endure the side effect'. She looked at me. I carried on to explain that i would actually tribute the improvement with the at least 3-4 days a week of 30min - 1 hour exercise. N of cos we both agreed the change of diet is great. I cut down on tea (yeah friend, dun take tea immediately after meal, it will prevent your body from absorbing the nutrients), drink milo, start to eat more liver and beef.
Though still have to work towards the normal minimal count, it is really encouraging, yoyo!
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was so excited and high spirited after coming out of doc's room. Went to collect another type of iron tablet (which i just took now n it is causing some gastric problem already). U know wat! it took more than 30 min waiting time. By then my fatigue attack started again... the neusea feel, the black stars and feel of giddiness .. almost thought i will blackout.
i hope with the good progress the attack will lessen n milder.
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Another Saturday's mornign got interrupted.
My health is no good. Doctor says need more zzz.
Happily i usually let myself sleep later on Saturday morning.
Other nights, believe me i been having sleepimg disorder.. well some other aliment caused me to wake up every few hours especially on weekend i will be dreaming of work. So Saturday is most stress free. And particularly for this week, i want more rest cos that weekend i be engaged fully at roadshow.
But sms and phonecalls come in. I think i know why you want to find me. But hor after sms and one phonecall, no one answer, maybe you can reconsider not to ring again. It is real terrible to be waken up by phone rings. I din pick up but was badly shaken already. I may sound very mean to put it here. But the abruption actually made me feel so drain and had problem for the rest of day.. Maybe healthy ppl like you wont understand how it feel, anyway.......................
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e smart u, stupid me
Ya it was real stupid of me :(
The results was so encouraging. It moved from 9.8 to 11.1! waahahahahahhahahahah
The doctor 'shamelessly' boasted that her iron tablets did the magic. I was kind enough to let her finish her victory talk. then i told her 'sorry i only took one or twice. Told you i cannot endure the side effect'. She looked at me. I carried on to explain that i would actually tribute the improvement with the at least 3-4 days a week of 30min - 1 hour exercise. N of cos we both agreed the change of diet is great. I cut down on tea (yeah friend, dun take tea immediately after meal, it will prevent your body from absorbing the nutrients), drink milo, start to eat more liver and beef.
Though still have to work towards the normal minimal count, it is really encouraging, yoyo!
xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
was so excited and high spirited after coming out of doc's room. Went to collect another type of iron tablet (which i just took now n it is causing some gastric problem already). U know wat! it took more than 30 min waiting time. By then my fatigue attack started again... the neusea feel, the black stars and feel of giddiness .. almost thought i will blackout.
i hope with the good progress the attack will lessen n milder.
xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
Another Saturday's mornign got interrupted.
My health is no good. Doctor says need more zzz.
Happily i usually let myself sleep later on Saturday morning.
Other nights, believe me i been having sleepimg disorder.. well some other aliment caused me to wake up every few hours especially on weekend i will be dreaming of work. So Saturday is most stress free. And particularly for this week, i want more rest cos that weekend i be engaged fully at roadshow.
But sms and phonecalls come in. I think i know why you want to find me. But hor after sms and one phonecall, no one answer, maybe you can reconsider not to ring again. It is real terrible to be waken up by phone rings. I din pick up but was badly shaken already. I may sound very mean to put it here. But the abruption actually made me feel so drain and had problem for the rest of day.. Maybe healthy ppl like you wont understand how it feel, anyway.......................
xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
e smart u, stupid me
Ya it was real stupid of me :(
Wednesday, August 13, 2008
快乐不快乐
it is really hard to explain...
The situation is not what you r thinking.
Everyone need to make a living. N in Spore we cannot run away from working late and hard.
Rat race? i should say it is ant walk. U noe, workers in Spore no matter how high up or low u r, u r jus like ant, crawling ard look n feel busy but heading to nowhere. At end of day, u feel happiness n excitement meeting your mate. U would have seen how ant and ant meet and they suddenly become hyper and crawl even faster...
The more you keep thinking that way, the more i feel i m hindering you. Like clipping your wings not allowing u to fly as high n wild as you would like.
Currently over at work, i m in great dilemna also. Fruitless is major killer. The kind of supervisor that made you run ard even headless cos she is not clear of direction. Then the staff is beyond repair. This pax (dun noe to term he or she) has some psycho prob it seem. or too self centred. But i cannot blame this pax totally. Some ppl only have that level of thinking and think they are great n doing great. I think i should feel happy for this pax, in the world there is only RITE n never do wrong.
Every one is out to make a living. Nowaday i try to be forgiving. So no matter how many uncalling act by this pax, i will jus ensure thing move. This pax is unfortuanately termed as not-trainable and beyond repair alrady. But it is a happy person living in own world. That i really salute.
人生短短几十年
其实说短不短，说长不长
something for pondering..
1. Some people do outright crime - kill, rape, murder
2. Some people cheat on relationship
3. Some people like to create office politics at work
4. Some people like to tell lies
which one is considered as real BAD?
wat's your pick?
人没有十全十美
其实本身的教养也很重要
价值观是日益累积的，连父母也很难一一教导
为有自己不断好求上进，增进知识，领悟其中道理
偶尔放慢脚步，听听心底的回音
做出调整，脚步也跟着轻了
不伤害自己，更不伤害别人， 是我很想达到的境界
The situation is not what you r thinking.
Everyone need to make a living. N in Spore we cannot run away from working late and hard.
Rat race? i should say it is ant walk. U noe, workers in Spore no matter how high up or low u r, u r jus like ant, crawling ard look n feel busy but heading to nowhere. At end of day, u feel happiness n excitement meeting your mate. U would have seen how ant and ant meet and they suddenly become hyper and crawl even faster...
The more you keep thinking that way, the more i feel i m hindering you. Like clipping your wings not allowing u to fly as high n wild as you would like.
Currently over at work, i m in great dilemna also. Fruitless is major killer. The kind of supervisor that made you run ard even headless cos she is not clear of direction. Then the staff is beyond repair. This pax (dun noe to term he or she) has some psycho prob it seem. or too self centred. But i cannot blame this pax totally. Some ppl only have that level of thinking and think they are great n doing great. I think i should feel happy for this pax, in the world there is only RITE n never do wrong.
Every one is out to make a living. Nowaday i try to be forgiving. So no matter how many uncalling act by this pax, i will jus ensure thing move. This pax is unfortuanately termed as not-trainable and beyond repair alrady. But it is a happy person living in own world. That i really salute.
人生短短几十年
其实说短不短，说长不长
something for pondering..
1. Some people do outright crime - kill, rape, murder
2. Some people cheat on relationship
3. Some people like to create office politics at work
4. Some people like to tell lies
which one is considered as real BAD?
wat's your pick?
人没有十全十美
其实本身的教养也很重要
价值观是日益累积的，连父母也很难一一教导
为有自己不断好求上进，增进知识，领悟其中道理
偶尔放慢脚步，听听心底的回音
做出调整，脚步也跟着轻了
不伤害自己，更不伤害别人， 是我很想达到的境界
Sunday, August 3, 2008
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