Sunday, November 30, 2008
Tuesday, November 25, 2008
tat Saturday at airport in april
你只是静静陪了我一个午后
在我的心里仿佛你停了好久
一点点探索一点点感动
你竟然有我渴求已久的温柔
你问我是否还有感情路要走
那是我自己都怕提起的伤痛
不想说太多不要人问候
不想在这个时侯对你细说
只想有一段路是你陪着我走
不谈论关于我的过去和以后
挥霍寂寞直到我们的心又软弱
只想有一段路是我陪着你走
就算为一个一定会消失的梦
在我的心里仿佛你停了好久
一点点探索一点点感动
你竟然有我渴求已久的温柔
你问我是否还有感情路要走
那是我自己都怕提起的伤痛
不想说太多不要人问候
不想在这个时侯对你细说
只想有一段路是你陪着我走
不谈论关于我的过去和以后
挥霍寂寞直到我们的心又软弱
只想有一段路是我陪着你走
就算为一个一定会消失的梦
叉烧与烧肉拼盘
never can get along well. Even talking
but they r often put together in the same plate.
then when u mix them up the taste is great........
in this case, it was for maybe 2-3 yrs only.
现在连客套话都可以那么的火拼
the plate is like our lives. Guess we wont get along anyway but are bundled together.. somehow..
we wont drop contact but it will be like that.. last time cant see eye to eye now also cant, the future also will be the same.
but they r often put together in the same plate.
then when u mix them up the taste is great........
in this case, it was for maybe 2-3 yrs only.
现在连客套话都可以那么的火拼
the plate is like our lives. Guess we wont get along anyway but are bundled together.. somehow..
we wont drop contact but it will be like that.. last time cant see eye to eye now also cant, the future also will be the same.
Retiree life preview
Today, i dropped all sort of burden and tried to enjoy my retirement day.
Despite waking up at 3am and having difficulty back to sleep, i think i enjoy the day quite well.
Did my routine workout by 11am. Went to library to return books and had BK for lunch. Satisfied my craving *yeah i am quite a junk food supporter.
Read a few pages while chewing on BK chicken ;)
Then went to do abit of groceries marketing.
Enjoying the slow walk and browsing, and soaking into Xmas mood.
Released tension and the many 'wat if', i enjoy the day.
Only got spolit when i realised i missed my credit card payment date again! Damn gonna waste $90 for nothing. Wrote in to ask for wavier. But i am such frequent requester so not sure if it can be sucessful.. My fault wat e fuck i m doing!!!!!!!!!! Gonna ask for auto deduct liao
haiz
okok i try to get back the relax mood or life will go wrong wrong wrong again.......
Despite waking up at 3am and having difficulty back to sleep, i think i enjoy the day quite well.
Did my routine workout by 11am. Went to library to return books and had BK for lunch. Satisfied my craving *yeah i am quite a junk food supporter.
Read a few pages while chewing on BK chicken ;)
Then went to do abit of groceries marketing.
Enjoying the slow walk and browsing, and soaking into Xmas mood.
Released tension and the many 'wat if', i enjoy the day.
Only got spolit when i realised i missed my credit card payment date again! Damn gonna waste $90 for nothing. Wrote in to ask for wavier. But i am such frequent requester so not sure if it can be sucessful.. My fault wat e fuck i m doing!!!!!!!!!! Gonna ask for auto deduct liao
haiz
okok i try to get back the relax mood or life will go wrong wrong wrong again.......
Monday, November 24, 2008
Friday, November 21, 2008
Living in my own world
Totally shield away fr storm outside.
It is scarey and totally insecure.
Maybe should say it WAS.
Now i just want to enjoy this little short period of serenity. Admit this is the down and out period. And enjoy it afterwhich will be totally different war zone.
Relax relax relax.. hear no gossip of mine, hear no criticisim of mine, hear no misperception on me..
Chosen it n will just swift through this period.
As usual, it's a test of own determination and decisiveness
他人的有心或无意指点，蔓延的流言， 我怎能轻易忘了自己设下的目标而沉浸在自怜的漩涡？
人生太在乎别人的指责，成功就会远离我。。。
Now i truely noe wat is meant by FOCUS
gemini, gemini... focus focus focus.. trash the devil out of you
It is scarey and totally insecure.
Maybe should say it WAS.
Now i just want to enjoy this little short period of serenity. Admit this is the down and out period. And enjoy it afterwhich will be totally different war zone.
Relax relax relax.. hear no gossip of mine, hear no criticisim of mine, hear no misperception on me..
Chosen it n will just swift through this period.
As usual, it's a test of own determination and decisiveness
他人的有心或无意指点，蔓延的流言， 我怎能轻易忘了自己设下的目标而沉浸在自怜的漩涡？
人生太在乎别人的指责，成功就会远离我。。。
Now i truely noe wat is meant by FOCUS
gemini, gemini... focus focus focus.. trash the devil out of you
Thursday, November 20, 2008
e nite scene...
It is pretty common amongst HDB dwellers to complain of 'marble dropping' and 'furniture dragging' noises in middle of nite. Some even have very spooky answers. It might apply to my unit since mine is the highest for corner units!
However i have learnt to ignore the unexplainable part.
It is the nite scenes by neighbours that made my nerves unsettled.
Recently there are often loud bangs and quarrels. Then last nite at 1 or 2am, was awoken in shock with plates rumbling! Well, i guess is the one immediately below my unit. Probably the dog or just the parents. The parents are as equally noisy as their kids during day time. One more habit of theirs is to bang and lock the gate extremely hard. Poor door and gate...
This is nerve wreaking. That partly made me give up resting and recuperating. I cant do that in the day time and at night! So guess it be better off to go back to workforce. At least for past 3.5yrs in Serangoon, i din hear or aware of this phenomenon. Home was purely like hotel for me to bathe n sleep say fr 3am to 8.30am.
Now i hope to get back a job that works endlessly into the day, nite and even weekends. Cos many things have already sort of turned meaningless.
However i have learnt to ignore the unexplainable part.
It is the nite scenes by neighbours that made my nerves unsettled.
Recently there are often loud bangs and quarrels. Then last nite at 1 or 2am, was awoken in shock with plates rumbling! Well, i guess is the one immediately below my unit. Probably the dog or just the parents. The parents are as equally noisy as their kids during day time. One more habit of theirs is to bang and lock the gate extremely hard. Poor door and gate...
This is nerve wreaking. That partly made me give up resting and recuperating. I cant do that in the day time and at night! So guess it be better off to go back to workforce. At least for past 3.5yrs in Serangoon, i din hear or aware of this phenomenon. Home was purely like hotel for me to bathe n sleep say fr 3am to 8.30am.
Now i hope to get back a job that works endlessly into the day, nite and even weekends. Cos many things have already sort of turned meaningless.
Wednesday, November 19, 2008
孤星
我真的是一个不适合谈恋爱的人。
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昔日我特有的魅力没有了
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人生一遍又一遍的苦涩，是我无法逃离的。
在又一个无人能谅解的情况下，我也只能孤独咬紧牙根慢慢的爬上来。
真的没有气谁。生活是自己的，命运也只有自己可以试图改变
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昔日我特有的魅力没有了
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人生一遍又一遍的苦涩，是我无法逃离的。
在又一个无人能谅解的情况下，我也只能孤独咬紧牙根慢慢的爬上来。
真的没有气谁。生活是自己的，命运也只有自己可以试图改变
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Monday, November 17, 2008
how do i get progress in life?
We live for a purpose. That is what usually a succesful person will say. With a purpose, there will be meaning and efforts are deemed effortless.
I used to be pretty hard on myself. At least that's what i thought it was.
Personal growth, i strive to get educational certificates. Every pass and graduation make me feel fulfilled and will stronger. Cos i was able to exceed own limitation and broke the curse or rather the bad trend in my family tree (both parents' sides). Under almost impossible climates, i got the fundamental certificates. And was happy and really glad. That to some it seemed so trivial and thought i was weird. Everyone has different set(s) of obstacles to overcome. I am destined to go through the unusual path in order to achieve something which seemed so naturally to possess.
Looking back and into current, have made a serious mistake in career move. Amist all the encouragaement to leave a hell workplace, i forgot something most important. This weirdo works on anything merely because of passion. Yeah, with passion, obstacles can be overcome w/o pain. So now i find myself drifting because i cant find back the passion. It is almost impossible, but true, that i want to work on something that at the same time benefit people at large. That is because, when i was at the brim of life, nobody extended help (but i do appreciate what the church has done for my whole family. The Church handed us some monthly $ so that i was not as taxing to provide for entire family expenses)
So, now what can i do to progress in career? it is not only stagnant but almost put to a stop cos of stupid health issue. But i do not want it to be an end. I cannot afford. And yeah i m hungry for alot more. Because i strived very hard and got what i had, i want to prove to myself that i can do better despite limited IQ and capability. I need to show a good example for my younger brother.
How do i break the current barrier and progress..
Love / Relationship is the worst part of my life. The past showed i was such a failure. This current one i am not sure how to make it progress. Thanks to say that currently there is trust and alot of understanding. However there must be more efforts or how can a relationship substain and even progress? W/o new progress, alot of unhappy things will happen. That is why we see couple of many years eventually break up even before marriage. Married couples are just together for sake of status and some for children. With now things are fine, how can i bring this relationship to newer height?
Maybe i am really shallow. Definition of progress is so limit. But i need to try and strive harder. Progress is something no one can run away from it.
Ponder and ponder. Who and where can i learn to be smarter and view things more wholesome n intelligently?
I used to be pretty hard on myself. At least that's what i thought it was.
Personal growth, i strive to get educational certificates. Every pass and graduation make me feel fulfilled and will stronger. Cos i was able to exceed own limitation and broke the curse or rather the bad trend in my family tree (both parents' sides). Under almost impossible climates, i got the fundamental certificates. And was happy and really glad. That to some it seemed so trivial and thought i was weird. Everyone has different set(s) of obstacles to overcome. I am destined to go through the unusual path in order to achieve something which seemed so naturally to possess.
Looking back and into current, have made a serious mistake in career move. Amist all the encouragaement to leave a hell workplace, i forgot something most important. This weirdo works on anything merely because of passion. Yeah, with passion, obstacles can be overcome w/o pain. So now i find myself drifting because i cant find back the passion. It is almost impossible, but true, that i want to work on something that at the same time benefit people at large. That is because, when i was at the brim of life, nobody extended help (but i do appreciate what the church has done for my whole family. The Church handed us some monthly $ so that i was not as taxing to provide for entire family expenses)
So, now what can i do to progress in career? it is not only stagnant but almost put to a stop cos of stupid health issue. But i do not want it to be an end. I cannot afford. And yeah i m hungry for alot more. Because i strived very hard and got what i had, i want to prove to myself that i can do better despite limited IQ and capability. I need to show a good example for my younger brother.
How do i break the current barrier and progress..
Love / Relationship is the worst part of my life. The past showed i was such a failure. This current one i am not sure how to make it progress. Thanks to say that currently there is trust and alot of understanding. However there must be more efforts or how can a relationship substain and even progress? W/o new progress, alot of unhappy things will happen. That is why we see couple of many years eventually break up even before marriage. Married couples are just together for sake of status and some for children. With now things are fine, how can i bring this relationship to newer height?
Maybe i am really shallow. Definition of progress is so limit. But i need to try and strive harder. Progress is something no one can run away from it.
Ponder and ponder. Who and where can i learn to be smarter and view things more wholesome n intelligently?
Sunday, November 16, 2008
tire tire
super tire
flow is sooooooooo heavy...
though regular exercise n rather healthy diet have helped in reducing the bad pain for such period, i cant escape fr plain tire.. super tire.. no strength. But jus simply cant sleep longer.
Counting the days............................................................................
flow is sooooooooo heavy...
though regular exercise n rather healthy diet have helped in reducing the bad pain for such period, i cant escape fr plain tire.. super tire.. no strength. But jus simply cant sleep longer.
Counting the days............................................................................
小雨点的心事
我泡了一杯红茶
对着一块咬了一口的饼干说话
寂寞像一棵爬墙树慢慢爬上心头
偷偷搬到我家来住
我买了一束玫瑰花
对着每一朵花说出心中的话
寂寞像一本厚厚的书
重重压在心头
默默在梦里抱着枕头哭
这世界真真假假
是不是每个人都披着面纱
是不是每个人都互相害怕
看看窗外的高楼大厦哦···
不知道 不知道有没有人像我一样哦···
不知道 不知道真心话住在那一家不知道
对着一块咬了一口的饼干说话
寂寞像一棵爬墙树慢慢爬上心头
偷偷搬到我家来住
我买了一束玫瑰花
对着每一朵花说出心中的话
寂寞像一本厚厚的书
重重压在心头
默默在梦里抱着枕头哭
这世界真真假假
是不是每个人都披着面纱
是不是每个人都互相害怕
看看窗外的高楼大厦哦···
不知道 不知道有没有人像我一样哦···
不知道 不知道真心话住在那一家不知道
Thursday, November 13, 2008
blogging to some is meaningless......
facebook seems to be more interesting than blogg?
personal choice bah
nothing.. jus notice such thingy..
n why ants wont die that easy?
:(
personal choice bah
nothing.. jus notice such thingy..
n why ants wont die that easy?
:(
我能为你做些什么？
爱你，是要给你的爱多点距离？
你消失的一百天我没了笑脸
怕别人看见
我敏感的神经线一点一点没知觉
泛红双眼不成眠
它跟着我一整夜
麻痹的脸特效药也无解
才发现我正搁浅在爱情过敏的季节
oh
过敏源是对你的思念
我想我才了解我正停格在爱情过敏的季节
季节没改变是想念没断线
我想我才发现感情尘蹒已布满了我的世界
oh过敏源是为你流的泪
我想我才了解就算用尽了力气也未必如愿
季节没改变是眼泪弄湿脸
季节一直变但我的心没有变
你消失的一百天我没了笑脸没知觉
你消失的一百天我没了笑脸
怕别人看见
我敏感的神经线一点一点没知觉
泛红双眼不成眠
它跟着我一整夜
麻痹的脸特效药也无解
才发现我正搁浅在爱情过敏的季节
oh
过敏源是对你的思念
我想我才了解我正停格在爱情过敏的季节
季节没改变是想念没断线
我想我才发现感情尘蹒已布满了我的世界
oh过敏源是为你流的泪
我想我才了解就算用尽了力气也未必如愿
季节没改变是眼泪弄湿脸
季节一直变但我的心没有变
你消失的一百天我没了笑脸没知觉
风筝该飞多远？？？
明明白白，以针见血
你我的故事其实在每个角落循环。。 所以每个哀痛不是唯独你的。。
http://lz.book.sohu.com/chapter.php?id=8483&volume=1&chapter=15
过去的过去，
现在，怎么办？
该让空间阔一点？怎么样的爱，才能让你不休克？
你我的故事其实在每个角落循环。。 所以每个哀痛不是唯独你的。。
http://lz.book.sohu.com/chapter.php?id=8483&volume=1&chapter=15
过去的过去，
现在，怎么办？
该让空间阔一点？怎么样的爱，才能让你不休克？
Friday, November 7, 2008
Monday, November 3, 2008
Dun wan the past..
y when i told u i m not keen to bring up the past n u still tag me in?
Everybody have own thinking. To u may be weird but it not really up to u..
so as usual, now the past comes haunting me, i have to sell my smile.
haiz
these yrs i been tryin to forget everything in the past n to gradually forget how family n relatives brought pain to me..... then u must dig out the days...
damn
u dun understand u wont understand n i dun expect u to understand. But shouldnt u respect others? dun start thinking u r great n above n u r ritge in everything.. tat not gd for ur life, sad to say
Everybody have own thinking. To u may be weird but it not really up to u..
so as usual, now the past comes haunting me, i have to sell my smile.
haiz
these yrs i been tryin to forget everything in the past n to gradually forget how family n relatives brought pain to me..... then u must dig out the days...
damn
u dun understand u wont understand n i dun expect u to understand. But shouldnt u respect others? dun start thinking u r great n above n u r ritge in everything.. tat not gd for ur life, sad to say
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