it is time to get serious and check out on 'extraordinary' people whom have battled life obstacles and achieved much.
Tat is what often being brought up.. if u wan to noe success u need to check out how others do. This is not too hard , jus look around..
* recently watched 'trading spouses' in the afternoon. One episode had a rich & educated wife traded with another 'common' woman. The lst one made some wonder to the son of the 'common' family. She brought him to c a surgeon after him telling her that he is aspired to be one. He managed to get face to face to a surgeon n posted questions in mind. The questions he posed were so simple yet important for starter.. Kudos!
It took months and alot of courages and probably some kind of scheme n managed to invite this person for a dinner.
Equipped with a fast beating heart and list of questions in mind, i hopped into the car.
Dinner was sumptous but at intervals i felt choking.. it was a direct n frank talk n probably alot of time is 'talk down' on me.. I tot my vision was blurred.. Nevertheless, courage is great enough to continue to listen n reflect as much as i can understand.
Blaming others and situations were common among the common ones. The ones who determine to success may suck for a short minute and then think of how to get thing back in control. Tis is just too common, can hear or read from books! but how many of us can control frustrations.
Frustratios come from expectations..
N posing expectations on others r so easy. That leads to our frustration and let ppl fool us ard..
Have we pose expectations on ourselves? Being organised and stay compose. We often tend to give good excuse 'that is not possible'. But when we unconsciously or purposely pose expectation on others, did we hear that loud as well?
Out of 10, 8 situations can be controlled if you plan ahead, organise and response strategically. For 2 that may be so unexpected, you can steer it from how determine you r.
This is really true. I have completely forgotten about it.. i used to do that.. i told myself no one or no situation should prohibit me fr getting my education. I wan to be a white collar n doing well n fine like others. I achieved amidst alot of probs. I was afraid of ppl afraid of conversations, but i went ahead and knock on every employment agency i reseached just for interview to make mysefl comfortable with people n tense conversation.
These two years were terrible. I feel into trap of over-thinking. Many things i stopped myself even before putting out first step.. 'i cant', 'i afraid'
i got relationship and work problems and still allowed myself to be soak in others' similar problems. N got myself sink deeper n deeper into depression.
I wasted my time on ppl who r too carefree (probably they already chosen this path) n lead me blindly day in day out.
No i dun blame others. I DUN WAN to blame others
No i dun wan to suck.
I wan to plan ahead. it is so tough. I still have many questions on how to do this n that, ppl ard me cant help or refuse to help me.
Nevermind, 'i m afraid and frightened... wat the hell, just do it', 'whatever you say or do to me, i am still a worthwhile person'
If i dun wan my life, who will want? it's time to be responsible n fair to myself
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