Retreat 2010

Have been doing self reflection for past few weeks.

This moment starts the proper 2 days intensive reflections. Running away from ppl and technology. Phone may be onz but not answering as possible.

Tots may just be fickle and disjoint but all r precious reflections or goals ahead.

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Tdy had good morning cycling at Pasir Ris Park. Then LS while shopping.

Bought new bedsheet set (which i have not been doing since separated from Calvin). Just want bed to look proper again. If i have to sleep alone forever, i want it to be nice.

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Nothing wrong to be alone. Was reflecting this 2 yr r'ship while awaitin for paperwork to be done. It was an unplanned one. Actually which r'ship is planned? i have closed my heart but HOPE always fool ppl and i tot i give one more try. Then it has to go now.

I see the weak side of hearts.

Will never able to see hatred but just regrets.

So what made me fail from one to another? What made others fine?
Becos i never set standards and never have specific goals. Some r'ship i know can never work but i still go ahead becos i have faith in the other person. But that boils trouble becos there were pre-signs that thing wont work out. Now things surfaced, i can only sigh.

There is nothing wrong w/o r'ship. Living alone is something i m quite comfortable. Am as long as i do not know how to set standards and checklist, have better stay as i m now. Though consciously awaiting for him to u-turn... i hope u do, really.

But situation is such that there is no more u-turning and then moving ahead.

If that is the case, i will just move on silencely. Saddness will always be there but life has to go onz. 不再掏心掏肺 on another person.

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2011
气质要好多些。
人要美一些
身材要苗条些
吃要健康些
活要积极很多