letter to J

Buddy

U r not ard now.

I jus wan to write some emotions n share with you.

We re forever so buddy. Share joy n woes.

Tonite i wanted to drink alot alot n cry out loud. Cos i feel i wan to die one more time so that i can start afresh tmr n focus on work.

Recently something happened. It stirs some emotions; Overall outlook in life.

I wan to write out what exactly happen but i hate to be labelled as desperate. No i M NOT. Incident only reflects what damages it has created for my life.

"不敢也不可再触动那情弦了。tat minute life has never breathe"

How to turn into a robot. Work for rest of life for others. Go out must take care of others. N forget i am also a human. Walk like a corpse...

I know tmr i will wake up. Tmr if anyone msn,sms, email or talk to me, i will still be the mad person n rattle nonsenses (that i so used to put up in front of others). But deep in i m v v v v v v tire... I am tire of taking care of others, let ppl betray me and i continue to take care and care of the person(s). Cannot cry to song, cannot let tears shed anymore. Drink and cannot be drunk...