Kind of wanna do a concluding for this May 2008 - my birthday celebrations :)
Earlier on, i wrote on my blog that i would wish to have a month long bday celebrations and hope to get friends to give me wishes. Becos for past decade i was not happy. Always living in fear in May - my bday, ROM Anni and his bday. Supposed to be happy occasions but turned up either quarrel or realise he spent time with other women.
Mood was bad and low. There were still friends trying to cheer me up and even offered to spend the time with me.. i rem one yr Sleepy accompanied me throughout my actual bday. But i was still very bothered by his attitude.
Birthday was nothing as we will have it yearly as long as we still breathe. But the thoughts and wishes can really make u feel there is hope in this cold society.
Yr 2006 was the worst hit and Yr 2007 was still battling with false hope.
Closer to mid 2007 and especially from end 2007, i learnt and really started to live independently from r'ship burden. Somehow i forgive myself and him.
So this year i thought i would hope to really enjoy companion and care from friends (all who never forsake me). N really friends responded... old and new ones :)))))))
:)
Dear W came into my life unexpectedly de. But like he said, it is a very pleasant surprises for both of us bah :)
The new me now know how to balance friendship and GBR le :)
Really want to thank all friends who still stick to me even when i was a pain in the neck tryin to load my unhappiness on you all.... you guys continued to be patience and try to make me feel i m still a human :):):)
朋友，是你们帮我走出最阴暗的日子。谢谢， 我会珍惜这友谊的！
荣，谢谢你走进我的新生命。我会珍惜，小心翼翼的与你灌溉这一棵树苗。
Human really needs friendship and in this cold and materialistic society, you will still get genunie care...
Friday, May 30, 2008
Gathering with PAsian
:)
so happy to meet with friends from PA.'
Some cannot make it.
N so surprise that Pearl can make it. She really make efforts to come de cos she has to go home aft dinner to do other work...
Got nice treat from Ye Peng (now aka yu bing), Sleepy, Pearl and PS.
We went for drink but missed Pearl. Glad i able to 'qing' back haha. Folks, should treat me only whne i reach 21 yrs old mah
Bought camera but forget to pester to take pic wa lau
N this HK optical mouse.. so exciting. tat y i not zzz yet.. playing wiht it!
so happy to meet with friends from PA.'
Some cannot make it.
N so surprise that Pearl can make it. She really make efforts to come de cos she has to go home aft dinner to do other work...
Got nice treat from Ye Peng (now aka yu bing), Sleepy, Pearl and PS.
We went for drink but missed Pearl. Glad i able to 'qing' back haha. Folks, should treat me only whne i reach 21 yrs old mah
Bought camera but forget to pester to take pic wa lau
N this HK optical mouse.. so exciting. tat y i not zzz yet.. playing wiht it!
Thursday, May 29, 2008
funny boy!
Yesterday ate with little Richard.
Very chatty and we talked quite abit. This time he din stormed out lol.
The food was good at suntec convention (steamboat). Maybe cos both were hungry so food was great!
Din noe he was NUS grad. He sounds more like 1st Clas honours from Uni of Hokkien hahahahahah o dear i so mean to him as usual.
We chatted abit and of course on bgf in general and gossip on others haha.
Then i made him wait with me for bus., But after 30min realised that the bus may not be in service lol. N proceeded to MRT.
So the spolit boy got to take MRT home.
Btw he had to stand two steps down so that i can talk to him on same level. told him i cannot raise my head too much as it adds to gravity pull n my low RBC can made me giddy looking at him. So when there is escalator and steps, he has to go down two to three steps haha.
xxx smsed me and offered to ride me back. But i was already in mrt so told him no need. However after some chatting heehee i went to TPY n he drove me back. Very spolit me hor? i was already tire and it was rather late le. Thanks xxx
Very chatty and we talked quite abit. This time he din stormed out lol.
The food was good at suntec convention (steamboat). Maybe cos both were hungry so food was great!
Din noe he was NUS grad. He sounds more like 1st Clas honours from Uni of Hokkien hahahahahah o dear i so mean to him as usual.
We chatted abit and of course on bgf in general and gossip on others haha.
Then i made him wait with me for bus., But after 30min realised that the bus may not be in service lol. N proceeded to MRT.
So the spolit boy got to take MRT home.
Btw he had to stand two steps down so that i can talk to him on same level. told him i cannot raise my head too much as it adds to gravity pull n my low RBC can made me giddy looking at him. So when there is escalator and steps, he has to go down two to three steps haha.
xxx smsed me and offered to ride me back. But i was already in mrt so told him no need. However after some chatting heehee i went to TPY n he drove me back. Very spolit me hor? i was already tire and it was rather late le. Thanks xxx
Wednesday, May 28, 2008
e room is spinning...
having real low count for RBC, it does not help during menses period.
Feel myself floating.
Last nite during dinner i was already feeling light headed. Felt so bad cos i asked to go home earlier. Then in the train almost collapsed. Lucky early part Frank called to chat n can distract me from feel of giddiness.
It took me real efforts to bathe n then collapsed onto bed.
Dear advised me to take the TCM medicine and then after 30min take the pink pills. Din really persisted and fell asleep. As usual the cramp n pain tortured me whole night. Finally at 404am forced myself to wake up and took the pink panadol. It helped abit.
this morning at 704, dear dear gave me a wake up call. Lucky he rang if not i think i will still remain unconscious. Took me about 10min to struggle to get up. the room jus spinn...
Took milo and then the TCM medicine (left today to finish it). But not good mix as in the bus i felt nuasea. Now still feeling like throwing up. :(:(:(
Later have two meetings. N one of the staff really piss me off. Every single thing cannot do. Wasting alot of my energy.
really feel like goin to doc n do the blood test n see if RBC still dipping.. but dun wan lah waste money only.
Talking about yesterday, was v v v touched that Frank initiated to celebrate my bday. We went to a Korean resturant n food was great. Only that i do not know the shop name still. Later we went to a pub at Tg Pagar. But din really like such plc. Nevertheless Frank my 'big bro' really dote on me :):):) cos i cute! i called him bro and we are Koh! hahahaha
Tonite there is one more dinner with Richard young chap. Then Thursday with Sleepy & Bro bear .. wonder they manage to get PS or not. Then fri R&R, then sat maybe go JB and sun do hair n shop with Ying & Florence. Must drill the latter on her romance..
xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
i have put behind the marriage and a decade of nightmare..
This period, W has been soooo soo nice toward me. His care & concern really really make me feel like human again.. have not been wanting a r'ship eversince woken up from marriage.. but this time it is sooooo different. Even during the bday period he did soooo much.. not the gift but the efforts n tots really touched me!
But he is someone that hold privacy dearly so din really declare much on us. Excited and worry... n he said i paranoid de.. haha... hopefully i really hope something good will come to this r'ship :)
Feel myself floating.
Last nite during dinner i was already feeling light headed. Felt so bad cos i asked to go home earlier. Then in the train almost collapsed. Lucky early part Frank called to chat n can distract me from feel of giddiness.
It took me real efforts to bathe n then collapsed onto bed.
Dear advised me to take the TCM medicine and then after 30min take the pink pills. Din really persisted and fell asleep. As usual the cramp n pain tortured me whole night. Finally at 404am forced myself to wake up and took the pink panadol. It helped abit.
this morning at 704, dear dear gave me a wake up call. Lucky he rang if not i think i will still remain unconscious. Took me about 10min to struggle to get up. the room jus spinn...
Took milo and then the TCM medicine (left today to finish it). But not good mix as in the bus i felt nuasea. Now still feeling like throwing up. :(:(:(
Later have two meetings. N one of the staff really piss me off. Every single thing cannot do. Wasting alot of my energy.
really feel like goin to doc n do the blood test n see if RBC still dipping.. but dun wan lah waste money only.
Talking about yesterday, was v v v touched that Frank initiated to celebrate my bday. We went to a Korean resturant n food was great. Only that i do not know the shop name still. Later we went to a pub at Tg Pagar. But din really like such plc. Nevertheless Frank my 'big bro' really dote on me :):):) cos i cute! i called him bro and we are Koh! hahahaha
Tonite there is one more dinner with Richard young chap. Then Thursday with Sleepy & Bro bear .. wonder they manage to get PS or not. Then fri R&R, then sat maybe go JB and sun do hair n shop with Ying & Florence. Must drill the latter on her romance..
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i have put behind the marriage and a decade of nightmare..
This period, W has been soooo soo nice toward me. His care & concern really really make me feel like human again.. have not been wanting a r'ship eversince woken up from marriage.. but this time it is sooooo different. Even during the bday period he did soooo much.. not the gift but the efforts n tots really touched me!
But he is someone that hold privacy dearly so din really declare much on us. Excited and worry... n he said i paranoid de.. haha... hopefully i really hope something good will come to this r'ship :)
Tuesday, May 27, 2008
e horrible thing happened!
suddenly w/o any pre warning.. co barred msn n chat room. Even ebuddy cannot!
sick!
disgusted!
depressing!!!
:(
i think the ppl mad.
They din realised that we also chat regard to work. damn it
hate them
sick!
disgusted!
depressing!!!
:(
i think the ppl mad.
They din realised that we also chat regard to work. damn it
hate them
thanks...
So many greetings from friends, ex colleagues n new friends :)
But i was working and it was not v smooth day. Missed a couple of phoncalls such as bro bear n Ernest. Sorry folks!
got this pot of flowers n believe me, the happiest moment!
Have always depict morning glory as myself... it is wild flower but also quite dependent. So many think i m 'wild' and strong character but actually i need that fence also ;) Of cos it is purplish hence i love it more more more!
Wednesday, May 21, 2008
next week..
the two days aft monday...
maybe will use work to drown myself on tuesday. Though it is a past, still mix of nitemare n some memory bah... or drag other out since someone wont be free on tuesdays...
wednesday goin to eat with a friend. Both of us fall sick too easily let see if we can really get toegether lol. should i still on my msn n then greet him bday?
maybe will use work to drown myself on tuesday. Though it is a past, still mix of nitemare n some memory bah... or drag other out since someone wont be free on tuesdays...
wednesday goin to eat with a friend. Both of us fall sick too easily let see if we can really get toegether lol. should i still on my msn n then greet him bday?
suddenly fever
virus jus attacked me out of sudden on monday evening.
No tell tale sign at all.
But it is of little surprise. My v v v low RCB count already got me tire too easily. so guess i m prone to virus infection.
N again, nothing to do with clubbing. Cos i was well well well de.
Felt so hot n cold n bones bitting aching. but doc wsa not too concern. Even medicine given was so pathetic. Maybe it got to do with me now under NTUC scheme? so i m not a value customer liao? if i really kena dengue will sue him lor.
piss
No tell tale sign at all.
But it is of little surprise. My v v v low RCB count already got me tire too easily. so guess i m prone to virus infection.
N again, nothing to do with clubbing. Cos i was well well well de.
Felt so hot n cold n bones bitting aching. but doc wsa not too concern. Even medicine given was so pathetic. Maybe it got to do with me now under NTUC scheme? so i m not a value customer liao? if i really kena dengue will sue him lor.
piss
Friday, May 16, 2008
言不由衷
only last nite in bus, i was thinking of 'hopeful'
but worries roll in again.
Haiz, life is such.. dun wan to be a barrier but then worry.. maybe worry for nothing. but there are too many repeats in this life..
nvm think can still smile n give u best wishes de if......
用微笑配合 努力扮演好必须的角色
but worries roll in again.
Haiz, life is such.. dun wan to be a barrier but then worry.. maybe worry for nothing. but there are too many repeats in this life..
nvm think can still smile n give u best wishes de if......
用微笑配合 努力扮演好必须的角色
握紧的双手。。 其实拉不住什么。。
拥有了，失去。。 是人最辛酸的体验。
一个人可以承受多少的失去
失去过后，可以用时间来敷衍自己。
在知道将会失去的那刻，看着一一滑落手中，是最痛苦的。
我想我真的好害怕。
是宿命吗？无法逃脱命运？
还是会默默地支持你的。。。可能真的会是短暂的缘分。。那一点剩余的勇气希望可以陪你走一段路吧。。。
一个人可以承受多少的失去
失去过后，可以用时间来敷衍自己。
在知道将会失去的那刻，看着一一滑落手中，是最痛苦的。
我想我真的好害怕。
是宿命吗？无法逃脱命运？
还是会默默地支持你的。。。可能真的会是短暂的缘分。。那一点剩余的勇气希望可以陪你走一段路吧。。。
Wednesday, May 14, 2008
Surprise ! a wonderful bday celebration
GOSH
It was so well planned n i din even suspect anything.
A dinner that we (NICK, EDWARD n me) so used to go out n feast actually turned out to be a bday celebration for me!
Haha the moment i stepped into the restuarant, saw Winson n thought so coincident. Wanted to go over and shocked him.... then saw Edward.. stunned! then looked at the left side, all Sgpoolz ppl. I think i got the greatest shock! everybody jus carry on to eat as if nothing happen haha.
It was so well planned n i din even suspect anything.
A dinner that we (NICK, EDWARD n me) so used to go out n feast actually turned out to be a bday celebration for me!
Haha the moment i stepped into the restuarant, saw Winson n thought so coincident. Wanted to go over and shocked him.... then saw Edward.. stunned! then looked at the left side, all Sgpoolz ppl. I think i got the greatest shock! everybody jus carry on to eat as if nothing happen haha.
We took alot of pic while i have alot of Qn mark in my mind as how they coordinated.
:))))))))))
finally found out that Nick had this planned since March and Edward was the culprit, then Donna (Sgpoolz) was dragged in.... the celebration was changed as i cancelled it on 9 may. If not there will be more to join in. The PAsian group did not turn up... n Nick mentioned he wanna do more so i suspect he wanna drag my cohort mates as well de...... haha but he was too busy.
The coordination took part all over e world while Nick travel....
GOSH GOSH GOSH
n Winson dear never leak out a word!!!!!!!!!
really speechless n love love love all the tots n efforts........
thank you for letting me have a wonderful May :)
more pic in facebook in Donna's profile. She is my young young twin :)
revealing the secret sender
hmm so my guess is pretty rite!
It's RT... haha happen to be same initial as my current boss....
He was the second suspect in my list (self high again thought many will send me flowers heehee).
But he denied when i called him.
Last nite before i zzz suddenly got enlightened. He may felt bad for cancelling dinner yesterday (supposing a treat for my bday) so he should be sending flowers as replacement. Smsed him
Think he replied late n i was already fallen asleep. He said he just wan me to be happy... cool man! another friend wanna me to be happy. cos recently i complaint too much esp dwelling on the fact that Blood Donation Centre refused to take my blood due to real low RBC count. N i did teared abit in front of doc cos told her it is my bday mth n i wanna to do sth nice :(
Anyway, friendship is hard to come by and i treasure every friends. Thanks for all the good old friends and newfound friends, FOREVER FRIENDSHIP
Cheers!
PS: someone said dun keep telling him abt this case n look forward to weekend getaway. I do look forward de :):):)
It's RT... haha happen to be same initial as my current boss....
He was the second suspect in my list (self high again thought many will send me flowers heehee).
But he denied when i called him.
Last nite before i zzz suddenly got enlightened. He may felt bad for cancelling dinner yesterday (supposing a treat for my bday) so he should be sending flowers as replacement. Smsed him
Think he replied late n i was already fallen asleep. He said he just wan me to be happy... cool man! another friend wanna me to be happy. cos recently i complaint too much esp dwelling on the fact that Blood Donation Centre refused to take my blood due to real low RBC count. N i did teared abit in front of doc cos told her it is my bday mth n i wanna to do sth nice :(
Anyway, friendship is hard to come by and i treasure every friends. Thanks for all the good old friends and newfound friends, FOREVER FRIENDSHIP
Cheers!
PS: someone said dun keep telling him abt this case n look forward to weekend getaway. I do look forward de :):):)
Sunday, May 11, 2008
Sad Sunday
Today went in attempt to donate blood at HSA.
Was rather rush and managed to reach there 30min before appt time.
:(
The doctor glanced at me and told me to do the blood test first, citing 'if cannot pass, then no need see doc so dun have to waste my time.' It seemed like she can tell i sure cant pass the test.
Went to the station crossing fingers .... then result out, my blood count is 8.8. So cannot pass. N went to see e doc. She really looked please with her prediction... But i dun blame her. cos when u r in a profession for too long, ur experience accumualted... She said usually need at least 12+ then can do the donation. She found it strange that my blood count is so low. I din tell her my last one @ co's doc was 9.9 n already the doc v concern...... She told me that i have to start eating right n rite quantity. N even so, i can only come back aft 6 mths. Told her i am very upset cos this is my bday mth, i wan to do so th good :(:(:( CRY CRY CRY
You are very nice to accompany me there and comforted me. Thanks for the wonderful day :) so sweetz. Especially when i jus refused to eat that bowl of noodles n u ate halfway n went to buy other food for me. Actually i did n do get tire too easily le (the doc was nto wrong to say i must be feelin tire v v v easily) that was y i changed mind and asked u to q for me. Usually i wont wan to disrupt when ppl eating de. Very sorry for being selfish.
Dun noe lah, hope thing is ok.
Was rather rush and managed to reach there 30min before appt time.
:(
The doctor glanced at me and told me to do the blood test first, citing 'if cannot pass, then no need see doc so dun have to waste my time.' It seemed like she can tell i sure cant pass the test.
Went to the station crossing fingers .... then result out, my blood count is 8.8. So cannot pass. N went to see e doc. She really looked please with her prediction... But i dun blame her. cos when u r in a profession for too long, ur experience accumualted... She said usually need at least 12+ then can do the donation. She found it strange that my blood count is so low. I din tell her my last one @ co's doc was 9.9 n already the doc v concern...... She told me that i have to start eating right n rite quantity. N even so, i can only come back aft 6 mths. Told her i am very upset cos this is my bday mth, i wan to do so th good :(:(:( CRY CRY CRY
You are very nice to accompany me there and comforted me. Thanks for the wonderful day :) so sweetz. Especially when i jus refused to eat that bowl of noodles n u ate halfway n went to buy other food for me. Actually i did n do get tire too easily le (the doc was nto wrong to say i must be feelin tire v v v easily) that was y i changed mind and asked u to q for me. Usually i wont wan to disrupt when ppl eating de. Very sorry for being selfish.
Dun noe lah, hope thing is ok.
Tuesday, May 6, 2008
again again too quick to jump to my fault!
Y always like that.
Wat has it got to do with me?
Ask me to check ur credit card bill. Tried to update u n u Dun wan to listen
U said to help pay for u ur airfare for last trip. I saw u have another outstanding bill that is charged for late payment and told u. Without understanding, you jus put blame on me. Citing that u have asked me to check the bill for airfare so i must have let it lapse hence the late chargees...... But i jus got the bill and also the card u used for airfare is not the one u incurred late charges
ARRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
still take me as ur punching bag?!!!!
Wat has it got to do with me?
Ask me to check ur credit card bill. Tried to update u n u Dun wan to listen
U said to help pay for u ur airfare for last trip. I saw u have another outstanding bill that is charged for late payment and told u. Without understanding, you jus put blame on me. Citing that u have asked me to check the bill for airfare so i must have let it lapse hence the late chargees...... But i jus got the bill and also the card u used for airfare is not the one u incurred late charges
ARRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
still take me as ur punching bag?!!!!
也许自己不敢相信自己可以拥有幸福吧。。。
u asked how come things become like this... and whr is the trust...
It is not about not trusting you. Rather, i may have not trusted myself that i deserve L.
Decade of pain haunting me?
Whole night no zzz well again. Tis morning, it occurs to me that if this goes on, u may soon choose to become one of the passerbys in my life. Haiz, 我也不想这样的。。。
幸福-我能拥有吗？
你- 我能守住吗？
你我- 可不可以。。。
THink too much le?
Worry too much le?
Tat first nite @ clubbing could have leave some insecurity... And a few times when u tend to worry for Y... our age.. my insecurity... when can i break free from these worries...
help me...
It is not about not trusting you. Rather, i may have not trusted myself that i deserve L.
Decade of pain haunting me?
Whole night no zzz well again. Tis morning, it occurs to me that if this goes on, u may soon choose to become one of the passerbys in my life. Haiz, 我也不想这样的。。。
幸福-我能拥有吗？
你- 我能守住吗？
你我- 可不可以。。。
THink too much le?
Worry too much le?
Tat first nite @ clubbing could have leave some insecurity... And a few times when u tend to worry for Y... our age.. my insecurity... when can i break free from these worries...
help me...
Sunday, May 4, 2008
searching for the drive to work
Not only to work but to excel...
wat happen to me!
Could i dry up my drive n passion back in PA?
i cant find myself involve again :(
wake up WAKE UP WAKE UP
wat happen to me!
Could i dry up my drive n passion back in PA?
i cant find myself involve again :(
wake up WAKE UP WAKE UP
Saturday, May 3, 2008
it is so sad to put it to my blame..
if you wan to do sth jus do. Dun say actually for funz but dare not cos of me.
Haiz
very sick of such thingy.
For funz? but y zoning on that? so many times trying to shield her. But i m not that age to vie anything. LIke she said she wont not do that. It means somehow if so then...... well i noe i noe it is true also.
OKOK, i noe y. Cos i m jus secondary choice.
But dun have to tell me it is becos u worry i b not happy. Tat make me grey.
have e thought then jus do lor.
watever...
if you wan to do sth jus do. Dun say actually for funz but dare not cos of me.
Haiz
very sick of such thingy.
For funz? but y zoning on that? so many times trying to shield her. But i m not that age to vie anything. LIke she said she wont not do that. It means somehow if so then...... well i noe i noe it is true also.
OKOK, i noe y. Cos i m jus secondary choice.
But dun have to tell me it is becos u worry i b not happy. Tat make me grey.
have e thought then jus do lor.
watever...
Friday, May 2, 2008
May
This yr May is a very nervous mth.
Last yr was terrible very terrible.
This yr i dun noe, anticipating but scare everyting gone before bday * phobia again.. i think i need to see psychologist haha.
Suddenly after so many yrs of tearful bday, i feel like celebrating. But without candles of cos haha.. i wish many ppl will send my greetings... cos i wan to smile
Beside the nervous and abit of worry of losing... this yr i think i m not tied down by 10 yrs of bday phobia.. phobia he spent his bday with whichever bitch (a few in sequence), worry ROM day he choose to ignore. Watever i was not happy for decade. Then again not all his fault. I could have close one eye de hor? haha
WATEVER, this yr on 26 May i wan to smile..... without candles of cos haha.. no lah, m not ashame of my age. Being in active ageing, i believe age is not a barrier to own self esteem :)
give me a hug when u see me on 26 may hor :):):)
Last yr was terrible very terrible.
This yr i dun noe, anticipating but scare everyting gone before bday * phobia again.. i think i need to see psychologist haha.
Suddenly after so many yrs of tearful bday, i feel like celebrating. But without candles of cos haha.. i wish many ppl will send my greetings... cos i wan to smile
Beside the nervous and abit of worry of losing... this yr i think i m not tied down by 10 yrs of bday phobia.. phobia he spent his bday with whichever bitch (a few in sequence), worry ROM day he choose to ignore. Watever i was not happy for decade. Then again not all his fault. I could have close one eye de hor? haha
WATEVER, this yr on 26 May i wan to smile..... without candles of cos haha.. no lah, m not ashame of my age. Being in active ageing, i believe age is not a barrier to own self esteem :)
give me a hug when u see me on 26 may hor :):):)
wishes
Time flies past...
March was the mth i gave my blood for first time..
April kena bad news... doc said my red blood cell is v low n she sounded v worry.
Havent go for retest.
I noe sth not rite cos since few yrs ago, i been losing blood nightly... not alot but... sth not rite. At nite blood blend with mucus.. it getting too obvios. Sometimes i jus feel i need to blow out mucus but all r blood. Tonite again .. so irritating........
But i be sad if not allow to donate blood :(((((((((
This mth is the mth i feel i did disservice to the world.. by borning into the world. So wan to atone my sin...
wat is life when i cannot contribute back?
really good for nothing
March was the mth i gave my blood for first time..
April kena bad news... doc said my red blood cell is v low n she sounded v worry.
Havent go for retest.
I noe sth not rite cos since few yrs ago, i been losing blood nightly... not alot but... sth not rite. At nite blood blend with mucus.. it getting too obvios. Sometimes i jus feel i need to blow out mucus but all r blood. Tonite again .. so irritating........
But i be sad if not allow to donate blood :(((((((((
This mth is the mth i feel i did disservice to the world.. by borning into the world. So wan to atone my sin...
wat is life when i cannot contribute back?
really good for nothing
such a nitemare :(
Slept yesterday and suddnely felt someone pressing me. Heard noises and feel movement ard. I am home alone :(((((((((
Tried to chant and pray and struggle to wake up.
Managed to wake up at 12midnite (wa lau!).
SMS, had a phone call trying to calm me down.
No choice but to wake up n locked main door and brush teeth. Was so scare that i skipped washing my face cos dare not close eyes... all done in a huff n hide in room. Switched on tv. SMS and then another phone call :)) but i think i got scared badly so din wan to affect other, so asked to put down phone.
:(( feel like crying again....
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actually abit upset lah, said dun go then go. If no intention to remain then dun offer outright lah. really made me feel lousy.
I understand wed's nite already here and should go back de.
But dun offer.. there be some wrong notion. N it is not v nice to say then do then aft that change mind :((((((((( while i try to be understanding, it is abit upsetting. Haiz... so pretend to zzzzzz cos dun wan to show disapptment.
Tried to chant and pray and struggle to wake up.
Managed to wake up at 12midnite (wa lau!).
SMS, had a phone call trying to calm me down.
No choice but to wake up n locked main door and brush teeth. Was so scare that i skipped washing my face cos dare not close eyes... all done in a huff n hide in room. Switched on tv. SMS and then another phone call :)) but i think i got scared badly so din wan to affect other, so asked to put down phone.
:(( feel like crying again....
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actually abit upset lah, said dun go then go. If no intention to remain then dun offer outright lah. really made me feel lousy.
I understand wed's nite already here and should go back de.
But dun offer.. there be some wrong notion. N it is not v nice to say then do then aft that change mind :((((((((( while i try to be understanding, it is abit upsetting. Haiz... so pretend to zzzzzz cos dun wan to show disapptment.
Thursday, May 1, 2008
当 我还是 一个懵懂的女孩 遇到爱 不懂爱 从过去 到现在
直到他 也离开 留我在云海徘徊 明白没人能取代 他曾给我的信赖
See me fly, I'm proud to fly up high 不能一直依赖 别人给我拥戴
Believe me I can fly, I'm singing in the sky 就算风雨覆盖 我也不怕重来
我 已不是 那个懵懂的女孩 遇到爱 用力爱 仍信 真爱
风雨来 不避开 谦虚把头低下来 像沙鸥来去天地 只为寻一个奇迹
* See me fly (Let me fly), I'm proud to fly up high
生命已经打开
我要那种精彩
Believe me I can fly, I'm singing in the sky
你曾经对我说 做勇敢的女孩 *
我盼有一天能和你 相见 骄傲地对着天空说 是借着你的风
*我不会独单 因为你 都在
直到他 也离开 留我在云海徘徊 明白没人能取代 他曾给我的信赖
See me fly, I'm proud to fly up high 不能一直依赖 别人给我拥戴
Believe me I can fly, I'm singing in the sky 就算风雨覆盖 我也不怕重来
我 已不是 那个懵懂的女孩 遇到爱 用力爱 仍信 真爱
风雨来 不避开 谦虚把头低下来 像沙鸥来去天地 只为寻一个奇迹
* See me fly (Let me fly), I'm proud to fly up high
生命已经打开
我要那种精彩
Believe me I can fly, I'm singing in the sky
你曾经对我说 做勇敢的女孩 *
我盼有一天能和你 相见 骄傲地对着天空说 是借着你的风
*我不会独单 因为你 都在
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