May

This yr May is a very nervous mth.

Last yr was terrible very terrible.

This yr i dun noe, anticipating but scare everyting gone before bday * phobia again.. i think i need to see psychologist haha.

Suddenly after so many yrs of tearful bday, i feel like celebrating. But without candles of cos haha.. i wish many ppl will send my greetings... cos i wan to smile

Beside the nervous and abit of worry of losing... this yr i think i m not tied down by 10 yrs of bday phobia.. phobia he spent his bday with whichever bitch (a few in sequence), worry ROM day he choose to ignore. Watever i was not happy for decade. Then again not all his fault. I could have close one eye de hor? haha

WATEVER, this yr on 26 May i wan to smile..... without candles of cos haha.. no lah, m not ashame of my age. Being in active ageing, i believe age is not a barrier to own self esteem :)

give me a hug when u see me on 26 may hor :):):)