Backfire?

Gradually i come to term that i m the type that will pressurised own self to the max on many things.

Maybe i cant take failure. Likely i jus too sick of failing again and again in many areas.

One big influence was him. He used to put alot of expectations on me in many tings. if i cant do it and really many times i couldn't i am termed as 'useless'. So i simply cant take failure.

So today the pressure is very huge though it is not sth too big. But eversince then, my confidence level dropped to lowest. A simple thing i find it too hard to pick up.

So i tried to play it down with alot of negative words or even made it believe i dun care. It is to protect myself towards unforgiving myself should thing do not go rite.

e more i live, the more i dread of waking up. The more i dread of breathing... when everything of me is so WRONG!!!!!!!

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Not a prostitute. I dun really like any m an to jus touch me be it my hands or shoulder. Felt disgusted.

Mindset change.. last time i was abit wayward (not as much though) becos i wan to revenge n hate my hubby for wat he did.

Now i m having a normal r'ship. N i hope the rest r really truthful friendship

Yeah, friendship pls.......

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a story tat haunted me for 6 mths ...................

她常常故作冰清玉洁
不让任何人轻微碰动
那晚她见到他，却往他怀里靠
她心动了

其实他们好配。。。 对不起
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爱上了
越来越爱
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害怕梦会醒
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