Pain Pain

Ytd evening, i had a very bad LS experience again. Got to stop at one of the MRT station...

Used to have such occasions many times.

Like i say again n again, m really lucky to be able to survive to today n even longer heehee.

Always have alot of prob esp stomach (since last time specialist said i may have stomach cancer! geez).

Too much prob until ex hubby just ignore me (haha, it is liek that de mah, 司空见惯）Only my own family dun really noe cause i dun really wan to tell them. They know only alittle. Actually to tell them is also useless. Only add to their worry of how to get money.

so i also wan to stop telling 'u' or else it will be a history repeating itself again.

Nevermind, i wan to fight it out myself. Like i used to do. Now may need more efforts since age is catching up.

Alot of things though fate may still unfold (like my failed marriage), there must be some efforts to walk out or overcome matters de. If i have never force myself to study n work, will there be today? or everyday we have to think of how to get money?

This period, i made 'mistake' after 'mistake'. I need to turn ard situation... Guess there is no luxury of really rest full time for a long period le...

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Voices in my head?

Dun noe izzit i have been alone for too long.. n not been talking much since left workforce.

Last nite i was fallin asleep n suddenly woke up..... tot i heard my name being called.

Worry of health, career, money and not having enough knowledge could have done damages to me? Hope i wont get mentally disorder