Panick! Restarting......

A letter to u...

We have not known too long so u wont understand what happen..

N like others, u also think that i quitted my job cos i cannot take my boss stupidity

How to explain to u?

NO NO NO

Ppl who worked with me know me well. I have went through alot of hardship and challenges at work and even life. Nothing was plain sailing for me.

But i never gave up entirely.

My fighting spirit was always high.

this time i panicked.

It is my health. Ppl like you who are healthy wont understand.

I panick n panick even more.

It is ok if bosses give hell. Cos no brainer like her cannot do damage to me. It is ok if Director's demand is high and can be sarcastic.

It is NOT okay when my mind cannot work. The tremendous drop of blood cell count reduce my ability in concentratio and thinking. Did i not share with you that at one seminar, i simply turn blank?

Mum's has such giddy symptom when she was 30s. there will be days she cannot even get up.

I did not and have not been thinking i will suffer that too. But after several times esp. a simple 2 stop MRT ride can really wipe my energy off, i m scare n worry.

Ppl who know me know that even up to today i m the sole breadwinner at home. I cannot afford to be like my mum. Nobody can support me.

It is a painful struggle for me to leave workforce and not work for another who' know how many months.

Am alrady getting tire of answreing ppls' qn on why quit, so jia lat meh etc. Dun take me as a joke. It not fun


If really there is a need, i ought to give up everyting. And come back again whne i m up there again. Some human r dangerous. they onlybe attractd to u when u r there. when u r down, they will add salt to the wound

I am pushing that 'restart' button in anyway.