y do i tear at this hr.....
unfair allegation!
Tuesday, October 27, 2009
Friday, July 3, 2009
Mgmt style, which is urs?
Who say young mgmt will give an org more vibrancy and good changes?
It doesnt matter how young or old the mgmt team.
It is all within one character, emotions and fear.
How can a supervisor not checking facts with staff and then jus go ahead and write reprimanding email ?
Runnign away fr prob is no gd. And well u cannot run becos if u ask the staff not to pursue, the case is still pending. the onus will go to u.
There is no helicopter but only submarines ard
It doesnt matter how young or old the mgmt team.
It is all within one character, emotions and fear.
How can a supervisor not checking facts with staff and then jus go ahead and write reprimanding email ?
Runnign away fr prob is no gd. And well u cannot run becos if u ask the staff not to pursue, the case is still pending. the onus will go to u.
There is no helicopter but only submarines ard
Tuesday, June 9, 2009
'think too much' is commonly abused
To think or not to think?
Pure thinking w/o action also fruitless.
But not to think is better?
Really dun noe which is better off.
Everyone yearns for carefree life.
Sometimes, do we noe that if 'i choose a carefree attitude, the responsibility does not go off but shift to another person's shoulder?'
Live the day to its fullest is one great medicine. But i wonder if that is sufficient enough in this era.
This is this knot that i cannot untie yet. It is there n after several years of 'live one day pass one day' my subsconcious finally acknowledge that sometime must be done. Yet consciously i do not have the know how. So it is this hurdle that haunts me nite n nite.
Dun think too much.. tat will be word sprouted from others. Dun think? who think for me?
Pure thinking w/o action also fruitless.
But not to think is better?
Really dun noe which is better off.
Everyone yearns for carefree life.
Sometimes, do we noe that if 'i choose a carefree attitude, the responsibility does not go off but shift to another person's shoulder?'
Live the day to its fullest is one great medicine. But i wonder if that is sufficient enough in this era.
This is this knot that i cannot untie yet. It is there n after several years of 'live one day pass one day' my subsconcious finally acknowledge that sometime must be done. Yet consciously i do not have the know how. So it is this hurdle that haunts me nite n nite.
Dun think too much.. tat will be word sprouted from others. Dun think? who think for me?
Tuesday, May 12, 2009
Sunday, April 12, 2009
Thursday, April 2, 2009
when u cannot hang on anymore...
Aching all over, tire tire tire!
the feeling is like grabbing the tail end of a rope n being too tire, i gradually release the grip and let my hand slip away..
the feeling is like grabbing the tail end of a rope n being too tire, i gradually release the grip and let my hand slip away..
Saturday, March 21, 2009
C that tree or the window?
I lived in Alabama on a half-acre lot blessed huge oak trees that were 40 feet in diameter. They were HUGE! The house was laid out such that every bedroom faced the backyard. Each bedroom had a large picture window. The view was breathtaking. I enjoyed just looking at the trees. In the fall I would identify a particular leaf that was falling and watched it for what seemed liked 5 minutes before it fell to earth.
One day I invited this married couple over to enjoy the view from the bedroom window. I took them into the bedroom and excitedly pointed to the trees out of the window and exclaimed, "just look"!
After about 20 seconds there was no comment from the couple. I however, noticed a big frown on the woman's face.
I said, "What's wrong". She was reluctant to reply.
I insisted and again said, "What's wrong?"
She relented and said, "Don't you see those fingerprints on the glass?"
I turned and looked and there were what seemed to be fifty or more fingerprints on the glass. I ran for the Windex to clean the glass. The lady "Oh, I didn't mean for you to clean it now."
The morale here is this. That lady never saw the trees. Even when I tried to point them out, She missed it! I didn't see the fingerprints. I was looking through the glass not at it.
When the fingerprints were pointed out to me, I saw them and removed them. The lady never saw the trees. She focused on the fingerprints and she never got passed them.
Life is much like that. There are things in life that are good and things that are bad. You choose which things you want to focus on. I focus on the trees.
What are you focusing on?
ABOUT THE AUTHOR
William LambertThank You
For those who genuinely care for me at this stage, i say "thank u :)", for those who care for me but somehow over-interpret my current situation, i say "Thank you Very much, sorry that i have let u down cos i am still doing fine."
aiyo, 好无奈！I m shocked to learn that whatever reply given at this stage, will be interpreted differently. Ppl read too much into it?!? When i say 'i m ok, i m fine', it really stands.
So now i choose to stay quiet lo. Do what i have to do for myself.
People will face situation in life as long as one is breathing. I am doing what i need to do now. Why should someone think of it as 'very pathetic' and 'seriously in trouble'?
I blame on my limited language expressions. That's all i can push the blame. Else why would my replies got decipher as being 'bad shape'?
Luckily i realized that those who do that to me are the ones in some kind of 'sorrow'. From his email是, it shows the person is emotionally unstable. For instance, nagging on 'not having enough time' but still have all the time to flood others with junk mails n gossiping about others, complaining about 'busy at work' while during office hours'.
Did it occur to you that it is as sinful to complain about working as to not having a job? If you think that a NORMAL person must hold a job, then why are you complaining about your office, your staff & work?
Also, it will be injustice to TIME when you complain about 'not having enough time'. the time you used to complain r in fact TIME. Go read 'Paradox of Time' hee
Be kind and dun go too far stretched in creating an illusion of me now.
The fact is, i am looking for job; working hard on translation and language skills; keeping healthy; keeping ideal weight and waistline; eating healthier. I am enjoying the processes and progresses and appreciate every experience.
So look, if you dun hear from me, it means i am just keeping low profile now. Keeping low profile does not mean i am in 'bad shape'. i am just focusing on what i need to do now. But ur friendships i still hold dear (applicable to those that are creating this inconvenience to me).
Now i wonder with this blogging, will there be more mis-interpretation. Most importantly is not to guess that 'those' is referring to you, unless u noe u r doing it to me. 2ndly, dun take it that i m raged to the max with this entry. I am jus feeling perplexed. Yet it does not warrant my full energy into the incident. With this blogging, the nonsense will be 'shred away'
it takes all sort to make the world, tat's y:
我爱我的朋友门啊！yeah yeah, i love all friends!
i enjoy what i am doing before hitting into rat race again
aiyo, 好无奈！I m shocked to learn that whatever reply given at this stage, will be interpreted differently. Ppl read too much into it?!? When i say 'i m ok, i m fine', it really stands.
So now i choose to stay quiet lo. Do what i have to do for myself.
People will face situation in life as long as one is breathing. I am doing what i need to do now. Why should someone think of it as 'very pathetic' and 'seriously in trouble'?
I blame on my limited language expressions. That's all i can push the blame. Else why would my replies got decipher as being 'bad shape'?
Luckily i realized that those who do that to me are the ones in some kind of 'sorrow'. From his email是, it shows the person is emotionally unstable. For instance, nagging on 'not having enough time' but still have all the time to flood others with junk mails n gossiping about others, complaining about 'busy at work' while during office hours'.
Did it occur to you that it is as sinful to complain about working as to not having a job? If you think that a NORMAL person must hold a job, then why are you complaining about your office, your staff & work?
Also, it will be injustice to TIME when you complain about 'not having enough time'. the time you used to complain r in fact TIME. Go read 'Paradox of Time' hee
Be kind and dun go too far stretched in creating an illusion of me now.
The fact is, i am looking for job; working hard on translation and language skills; keeping healthy; keeping ideal weight and waistline; eating healthier. I am enjoying the processes and progresses and appreciate every experience.
So look, if you dun hear from me, it means i am just keeping low profile now. Keeping low profile does not mean i am in 'bad shape'. i am just focusing on what i need to do now. But ur friendships i still hold dear (applicable to those that are creating this inconvenience to me).
Now i wonder with this blogging, will there be more mis-interpretation. Most importantly is not to guess that 'those' is referring to you, unless u noe u r doing it to me. 2ndly, dun take it that i m raged to the max with this entry. I am jus feeling perplexed. Yet it does not warrant my full energy into the incident. With this blogging, the nonsense will be 'shred away'
it takes all sort to make the world, tat's y:
我爱我的朋友门啊！yeah yeah, i love all friends!
i enjoy what i am doing before hitting into rat race again
The Work of Bryon Katie
Suffering over Suffering
People suffer tremendously over the fact that they’re suffering, especially when the goal of the spiritual search is to end all suffering, then not suffering becomes just one more goal to fail at for the ego to suffer over. Resisting your suffering can cause more or just as much suffering as resisting whatever else you are resisting about life, which caused the suffering in the first place. Being upset that you are suffering tends to hold the initial suffering in place and extend it. Once you see this, there is the possibility of just allowing the suffering you are experiencing to be here—for now. If it is here, then let it be here, and that acceptance will provide an environment where the contraction you are feeling can begin to relax.
No one can suffer interminably; it’s too exhausting. You can only suffer so long before your consciousness expands again and you see things from a bigger perspective. Suffering is caused by seeing things from a very small perspective—the ego’s perspective. This small perspective makes you feel contracted, small, and powerless. You can only identify with this false perspective and the false self (the ego) so long before who you really are (essence) shines again and overshadows it. Often just out of sheer exhaustion, we drop back into essence (our true Self). What a relief to no longer be holding such a small perspective! It’s very tiring to be contracted, tense, and upset.
When you finally let go of the small perspective—the ego’s lie or limited story or belief—you relax into just being, and just being is inherently pleasant, relaxed, peaceful, accepting—mellow. The only thing that can cause you to contract and feel tense again is believing something else the egoic mind is telling you that doesn’t represent the whole truth about life or your situation. Have you noticed what negative stories the egoic mind tells you? The ego puts a negative spin on life, which stirs up negative feelings if you believe it. That’s the ego’s purpose, but we don’t have to buy its version of life.
The good news is that every time you contract, you can be sure you will expand! Suffering is not a problem because it isn’t forever—and it isn’t fatal! Of course, no one likes to suffer, but it does come and go, like everything in life. Suffering is a bit like the weather: Storms blow in and then dissipate. No matter how intensely you are suffering, it will run its course. Now, it is true that suffering is relatively unnecessary, that is, it’s possible to not suffer, or at least to not suffer so much, and that is what these spiritual teachings are about. And yet, very few people attain an existence that is entirely free of suffering. It is rare and, therefore, perhaps unrealistic to expect to be entirely free of suffering in this lifetime. How wonderful if you can reduce the amount that you suffer even a little! If you are able to do that, you can be sure that the amount you suffer will continue to decrease as you get better at ignoring the egoic mind and staying in the present moment.
This takes practice, like everything else. We practice listening to our egoic mind all the time, so it’s going to take practice to learn to not listen to it. When you feel impatient with your progress, remind yourself that that impatience comes from the ego. It creates the problem, and then suffers over it. Suffering over your suffering is just more ego, and all you have to do is just see that. And be gentle with yourself. It’s really hard being human, and if it were easy to wake up out of the ego and never suffer again, there would be many more people having that experience!
The funny thing is that as soon as you accept your suffering, and suffering over your suffering, you have taken a step back from the ego and dropped into essence, where the mistaken beliefs that caused your suffering can be seen through and healed. The more you are able to see that the beliefs that caused your suffering are untrue, the sooner you will be free of them. Suffering gives us an opportunity to see our conditioning, see its falseness, and become free of it. Suffering isn’t so bad! It is actually intended to set us free from the egoic mind, and eventually that is exactly what it does. Because it is unpleasant to suffer, we eventually question what we’re thinking, especially when spiritual teachings encourage us to do that.
We have the spiritual technologies and the spiritual understanding now to free ourselves from much suffering, but please don’t suffer over the fact that you’re still suffering sometimes! There is no hurry to become free. When suffering is no longer seen as a problem, then it can come and go, and whenever it shows up is an opportunity to see through any mistaken beliefs and negativity. Where’s the problem in that? Weather is supposed to happen, and so is contraction and expansion of consciousness, as long as we are human. Whether we suffer over that contraction or not is a matter of how much acceptance we bring to it when it is happening and how much compassion and tenderness we give ourselves for being human. The solution to suffering is acceptance, compassion, gentleness, and love for ourselves and others who are temporarily believing the ego’s negativity.
People suffer tremendously over the fact that they’re suffering, especially when the goal of the spiritual search is to end all suffering, then not suffering becomes just one more goal to fail at for the ego to suffer over. Resisting your suffering can cause more or just as much suffering as resisting whatever else you are resisting about life, which caused the suffering in the first place. Being upset that you are suffering tends to hold the initial suffering in place and extend it. Once you see this, there is the possibility of just allowing the suffering you are experiencing to be here—for now. If it is here, then let it be here, and that acceptance will provide an environment where the contraction you are feeling can begin to relax.
No one can suffer interminably; it’s too exhausting. You can only suffer so long before your consciousness expands again and you see things from a bigger perspective. Suffering is caused by seeing things from a very small perspective—the ego’s perspective. This small perspective makes you feel contracted, small, and powerless. You can only identify with this false perspective and the false self (the ego) so long before who you really are (essence) shines again and overshadows it. Often just out of sheer exhaustion, we drop back into essence (our true Self). What a relief to no longer be holding such a small perspective! It’s very tiring to be contracted, tense, and upset.
When you finally let go of the small perspective—the ego’s lie or limited story or belief—you relax into just being, and just being is inherently pleasant, relaxed, peaceful, accepting—mellow. The only thing that can cause you to contract and feel tense again is believing something else the egoic mind is telling you that doesn’t represent the whole truth about life or your situation. Have you noticed what negative stories the egoic mind tells you? The ego puts a negative spin on life, which stirs up negative feelings if you believe it. That’s the ego’s purpose, but we don’t have to buy its version of life.
The good news is that every time you contract, you can be sure you will expand! Suffering is not a problem because it isn’t forever—and it isn’t fatal! Of course, no one likes to suffer, but it does come and go, like everything in life. Suffering is a bit like the weather: Storms blow in and then dissipate. No matter how intensely you are suffering, it will run its course. Now, it is true that suffering is relatively unnecessary, that is, it’s possible to not suffer, or at least to not suffer so much, and that is what these spiritual teachings are about. And yet, very few people attain an existence that is entirely free of suffering. It is rare and, therefore, perhaps unrealistic to expect to be entirely free of suffering in this lifetime. How wonderful if you can reduce the amount that you suffer even a little! If you are able to do that, you can be sure that the amount you suffer will continue to decrease as you get better at ignoring the egoic mind and staying in the present moment.
This takes practice, like everything else. We practice listening to our egoic mind all the time, so it’s going to take practice to learn to not listen to it. When you feel impatient with your progress, remind yourself that that impatience comes from the ego. It creates the problem, and then suffers over it. Suffering over your suffering is just more ego, and all you have to do is just see that. And be gentle with yourself. It’s really hard being human, and if it were easy to wake up out of the ego and never suffer again, there would be many more people having that experience!
The funny thing is that as soon as you accept your suffering, and suffering over your suffering, you have taken a step back from the ego and dropped into essence, where the mistaken beliefs that caused your suffering can be seen through and healed. The more you are able to see that the beliefs that caused your suffering are untrue, the sooner you will be free of them. Suffering gives us an opportunity to see our conditioning, see its falseness, and become free of it. Suffering isn’t so bad! It is actually intended to set us free from the egoic mind, and eventually that is exactly what it does. Because it is unpleasant to suffer, we eventually question what we’re thinking, especially when spiritual teachings encourage us to do that.
We have the spiritual technologies and the spiritual understanding now to free ourselves from much suffering, but please don’t suffer over the fact that you’re still suffering sometimes! There is no hurry to become free. When suffering is no longer seen as a problem, then it can come and go, and whenever it shows up is an opportunity to see through any mistaken beliefs and negativity. Where’s the problem in that? Weather is supposed to happen, and so is contraction and expansion of consciousness, as long as we are human. Whether we suffer over that contraction or not is a matter of how much acceptance we bring to it when it is happening and how much compassion and tenderness we give ourselves for being human. The solution to suffering is acceptance, compassion, gentleness, and love for ourselves and others who are temporarily believing the ego’s negativity.
Thursday, March 19, 2009
Mangojo is good
Aiyo, abit bored and getting repetitive in answering ppl's msn, email, facebook etc....
I am ok lah. Not dead, not dying.
I m in good shape
Someone out there stop the nonsense. I dun noe how truly a friend you are. But there is sth amiss! I get smses fr others becos they said u mentioned abt me n i am ...... O pls. When did we really talk n how did you draw pic of me now?
Strange! it takes all sorts to make a world.
i shall pardon u. And the rest of u, tks for concern. I am ALRIGHT :)
I am ok lah. Not dead, not dying.
I m in good shape
Someone out there stop the nonsense. I dun noe how truly a friend you are. But there is sth amiss! I get smses fr others becos they said u mentioned abt me n i am ...... O pls. When did we really talk n how did you draw pic of me now?
Strange! it takes all sorts to make a world.
i shall pardon u. And the rest of u, tks for concern. I am ALRIGHT :)
Monday, March 9, 2009
Monday, March 2, 2009
Fire squad during Interpretation lesson
Doctorate level... the proud air we can feel. How her gentle and composed tone can kill you with crude insults straight onto one's face.
The two classmates must felt the heat and probably the impact as if big slap on their faces!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Learning is tough especially to do it almost instantly. Not more than 1 second to ponder; switch english and chinese vice versa. Well, even those with better and stronger language background have problem switching and finding the appropriate words and sentences.
10 more lessons and hope by end of it, we can interpret better n with more logic construction of sentences
;)
The two classmates must felt the heat and probably the impact as if big slap on their faces!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Learning is tough especially to do it almost instantly. Not more than 1 second to ponder; switch english and chinese vice versa. Well, even those with better and stronger language background have problem switching and finding the appropriate words and sentences.
10 more lessons and hope by end of it, we can interpret better n with more logic construction of sentences
;)
Sunday, March 1, 2009
Creating positive vibrations
Comprehended the book. I am in progress ..
worksheets!
hooray
Time to manifest
written on my worksheets
worksheets!
hooray
Time to manifest
written on my worksheets
Sunday, February 22, 2009
Today matters
John C. Maxwell
- Assess your current progress-take stock of yourself and discover how to make your life a masterpiece every day
- Prioritize your agenda-learn how to decide every day what's important to you and then get it done
- Stretch your creativity and thinking-generate new ideas every day to become a more valuable employee or boss
- Stay the course-reinforce your important commitments every day
- Manage your money-every day, instead of letting it manage you
- Strengthen your faith-discover the four powerful tools faith will give you, every day
- Improve and build relationships-connect with others every day with Maxwell's easy how-to's
- Nurture your personal growth-find out how to make yourself more valuable every day, and enjoy the payoff tomorrow.
The money thingy i m still having alot of inertia..
Wat e Hell! JIA YOU!
Growth & Learning
Mangojo,
It is always essential to grow in areas you are good at or feel you have got the talents.
It is even compelling to learn things that you are weak at and situation makes it more desirable to improve.
Despite not knowing what you are good at, you have known the many weaknesses. What goes around comes around. You have neglected your health for dozen of years. And you got the bad effect from it last year. It made you temporarily gave up a good career.
Determination has not failed you.
You were so frightened of doing even the slightest exercise. You have persisted hence after 5 months, an hour of slightly strained exercise is now deemed nothing to you. Your health has bounced back and getting better each day :)
Keep up the good work. Do NOT slag. You knew and shall remember those darkest days your health suffered.
Regards,
Your white angel
It is always essential to grow in areas you are good at or feel you have got the talents.
It is even compelling to learn things that you are weak at and situation makes it more desirable to improve.
Despite not knowing what you are good at, you have known the many weaknesses. What goes around comes around. You have neglected your health for dozen of years. And you got the bad effect from it last year. It made you temporarily gave up a good career.
Determination has not failed you.
You were so frightened of doing even the slightest exercise. You have persisted hence after 5 months, an hour of slightly strained exercise is now deemed nothing to you. Your health has bounced back and getting better each day :)
Keep up the good work. Do NOT slag. You knew and shall remember those darkest days your health suffered.
Regards,
Your white angel
Saturday, February 21, 2009
She is such a nice lady
Succumbed to hunger n the greed of having a BK Chicken burger,i headed straight to Clark Quay BK after school. 'Dash' may be a better word.
Not wanting a full meal, i ordered a BK chicken. When i was digging the coins, the counter lady gave me a pleasant surprise. She took a cup of plain water for me. I was so delighted.
Such service really comes from the heart. This little act touches me. It is not an 'out of obligation' act but can tell she is really caring.
Thank you,Mdm
xxxxxxxxxxxxxx
Having gastric flu since two days ago.
Today has been the worst. I love myself even more now that i have again used determination to curb the pain!!
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This class marks alot of rare talents or experts. They can translate anything on the spot almost perfectly.
It took me 2 days to finish 25 questions. I think i only got one perfectly correct.
Since uni i have not been vocal in class (it was such a contradiction in poly time). Today marked a courageous lesson in my life. Haaaaaaaaa... knowing my translation was not exactly good, i volunteered to answer 2 questions when the class fell silence. Despite the total correction from teacher,i felt great and patted own shoulder. The desire to improve is growing stronger. Next year by this time, i will be a better translator :)
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Yes, i still think an new aged culture is to be beaten.
Why do people just want to learn things that they already knew? And then when they are able to do the exam well, they go overjoyed?
Shouldnt we work on our weakness as well?
Fly you kite once again if you say only those with strong language background are suitable for the course. Btw, Diploma is simply a warm up
;) Call me arrogant or stupid. But i m hanging there. I love languages i love grammar, i love the art of translation, i love to improve myself every day!!!
Not wanting a full meal, i ordered a BK chicken. When i was digging the coins, the counter lady gave me a pleasant surprise. She took a cup of plain water for me. I was so delighted.
Such service really comes from the heart. This little act touches me. It is not an 'out of obligation' act but can tell she is really caring.
Thank you,Mdm
xxxxxxxxxxxxxx
Having gastric flu since two days ago.
Today has been the worst. I love myself even more now that i have again used determination to curb the pain!!
xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
This class marks alot of rare talents or experts. They can translate anything on the spot almost perfectly.
It took me 2 days to finish 25 questions. I think i only got one perfectly correct.
Since uni i have not been vocal in class (it was such a contradiction in poly time). Today marked a courageous lesson in my life. Haaaaaaaaa... knowing my translation was not exactly good, i volunteered to answer 2 questions when the class fell silence. Despite the total correction from teacher,i felt great and patted own shoulder. The desire to improve is growing stronger. Next year by this time, i will be a better translator :)
xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
Yes, i still think an new aged culture is to be beaten.
Why do people just want to learn things that they already knew? And then when they are able to do the exam well, they go overjoyed?
Shouldnt we work on our weakness as well?
Fly you kite once again if you say only those with strong language background are suitable for the course. Btw, Diploma is simply a warm up
;) Call me arrogant or stupid. But i m hanging there. I love languages i love grammar, i love the art of translation, i love to improve myself every day!!!
Thursday, February 19, 2009
sizzling iron
Iron lady is feeling 'tire' today. Fainted heart is seemed.
She needs some warmth; hugs and encouragement. But is not getting any. Because once an iron lady, forever an iron lady
then an email came:
The strongest single factor in prosperity consciousness is self-esteem: believing you can do it, believing you deserve it, believing you will get it.
She needs some warmth; hugs and encouragement. But is not getting any. Because once an iron lady, forever an iron lady
then an email came:
The strongest single factor in prosperity consciousness is self-esteem: believing you can do it, believing you deserve it, believing you will get it.
Friday, February 13, 2009
Present is a gift
I would have done better waking up to the alarm set this early morning.
Failing so, it meant a lost of 3 hours to complete tasks that are lining up.
Fixing things altogether was tough; laundry, cooking, clearing table, studying.
Managed to complete the grammar book after long delay. In a sense it took me 'a year' to do so. At least it is complete, likely with 80% attained.
Succumbing to laziness, workout period will be shortened to 30min slow stepper.
330pm workout
4pm rest
4-5pm read on translation
5-6pm preparing to go school
6pm set off
Requires some discipline to clear bills.
Mirror Reflections.. thank you
Interactions with a few people around me disclosed my past 'shame'.
Trapped in gossips, complaining of work and life, complaining the lack of time but somehow fast to seize oppt to complain. So end up meeting the wrong things and people
found these two websites
http://acomplaintfreeworld.org/howitworks.html (saw the CDs, maybe should get a copy fr libary
http://howtolivehappily.net/
Being in the not-so-comfort zone, i seek to create and attract +ve energies. M tired and shameful of the past. And i open my arms to welcome more +ve people, +ve learning, +ve experiences, +ve thinking and alot of self confidence
I would have done better waking up to the alarm set this early morning.
Failing so, it meant a lost of 3 hours to complete tasks that are lining up.
Fixing things altogether was tough; laundry, cooking, clearing table, studying.
Managed to complete the grammar book after long delay. In a sense it took me 'a year' to do so. At least it is complete, likely with 80% attained.
Succumbing to laziness, workout period will be shortened to 30min slow stepper.
330pm workout
4pm rest
4-5pm read on translation
5-6pm preparing to go school
6pm set off
Requires some discipline to clear bills.
Mirror Reflections.. thank you
Interactions with a few people around me disclosed my past 'shame'.
Trapped in gossips, complaining of work and life, complaining the lack of time but somehow fast to seize oppt to complain. So end up meeting the wrong things and people
found these two websites
http://acomplaintfreeworld.o
Being in the not-so-comfort zone, i seek to create and attract +ve energies. M tired and shameful of the past. And i open my arms to welcome more +ve people, +ve learning, +ve experiences, +ve thinking and alot of self confidence
Saturday, February 7, 2009
coffee turns cold
coffee turned cold. Another cup of coffee flows into the coffee cup. But it is getting cold.. despite efforts to keep warm.. the cup warmer faulty?
pointless to do sth when one do not feel like it.
pointless to do sth when one do not feel like it.
Friday, January 23, 2009
Learn to be a team player and give constructive suggestion
proceeding w new year, are we turning more mature rather than just grow up?
Even proceeding to next life cycle, are we sure we have developed thus more mature in thinking, dealing with people and handling matters?
Certain way of reacting has to be changed, no matter how unwilling you are.
The earth rotate n even if u stood still there, the earth will still rotate.
Self reflection
Sad to see breathing creatures living by seconds and laying expectation that others must serve oneself.
The earth n other people dun owe us anything.
Penning this facing a vast blue sky
Ya, dropping the trivial matter. I dun wan to soak in this issue n turn myself like a clown.
Even proceeding to next life cycle, are we sure we have developed thus more mature in thinking, dealing with people and handling matters?
Certain way of reacting has to be changed, no matter how unwilling you are.
The earth rotate n even if u stood still there, the earth will still rotate.
Self reflection
Sad to see breathing creatures living by seconds and laying expectation that others must serve oneself.
The earth n other people dun owe us anything.
Penning this facing a vast blue sky
Ya, dropping the trivial matter. I dun wan to soak in this issue n turn myself like a clown.
Presenting oneself
Had a nite chat on msn with a friend whom we dun really do alot of face-to-face chat but once we are in the msn, i tot we hit it off quite well.
Talking about work and personal development; grooming and image projection
After working for so many years, we are still giving people the wrong notion that we r fresh graduates.
While we cheer on or youthful look, we gradually realise there must be something that we still 'lack'.
Treated as fresh graduates is no fun. That erodes our experiences, capabilities and even authority.
What can be so wrong...
Recently i have more time on hand to reflect on own career, choices of friends, time management and many things. read alot and talk to many people.
For years i m getting more conscious of my child-like intonation and use of words. That really dun allow me to go too far. That is why i tend to lose out during negotiations. How much more efforts required to convince the higher management of my choices and strategies. Over tiring and full of frustation.
Then the clothins that i have been putting on. Back in tat workplace, everyone or at least alot of us do not really bother with how we dress. We are like in a little playground of ourselves. We tried to act hip and wear fancy clothes. Especially most of our times spent working. So it is naturally that we wan to feel at ease with casual n often inappropriate dressing. Not to add in that the revised n revised uniforms added salt to our wounds.
How you walk, gesture, talk and wear really make u win half a battle. Almost everyone noe this theory but how many practice it?
View on branded clothes:
met up with an ex colleague, he told me his clothes all must at least be Mark & Spencer. To show he is up there, to show himself being presentable.
Branded clothes are often with refined textures and cuttings. That i wont dispute.
But how one carry him/herself carry more weight.
The fact is the way he dress, the choice of design, mix & match does not give justice to the monies he spent.
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My view:
Ultimately, i rang the importance:
No. 1 importance: Poise & presentation
No. 2 importance: hair
No. 3 importance: clothes that fit your body contour, colour that match, material that fit the occasion
No. 4 importance: appropriate accessories
Gonna work very hard on this
Talking about work and personal development; grooming and image projection
After working for so many years, we are still giving people the wrong notion that we r fresh graduates.
While we cheer on or youthful look, we gradually realise there must be something that we still 'lack'.
Treated as fresh graduates is no fun. That erodes our experiences, capabilities and even authority.
What can be so wrong...
Recently i have more time on hand to reflect on own career, choices of friends, time management and many things. read alot and talk to many people.
For years i m getting more conscious of my child-like intonation and use of words. That really dun allow me to go too far. That is why i tend to lose out during negotiations. How much more efforts required to convince the higher management of my choices and strategies. Over tiring and full of frustation.
Then the clothins that i have been putting on. Back in tat workplace, everyone or at least alot of us do not really bother with how we dress. We are like in a little playground of ourselves. We tried to act hip and wear fancy clothes. Especially most of our times spent working. So it is naturally that we wan to feel at ease with casual n often inappropriate dressing. Not to add in that the revised n revised uniforms added salt to our wounds.
How you walk, gesture, talk and wear really make u win half a battle. Almost everyone noe this theory but how many practice it?
View on branded clothes:
met up with an ex colleague, he told me his clothes all must at least be Mark & Spencer. To show he is up there, to show himself being presentable.
Branded clothes are often with refined textures and cuttings. That i wont dispute.
But how one carry him/herself carry more weight.
The fact is the way he dress, the choice of design, mix & match does not give justice to the monies he spent.
xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
My view:
Ultimately, i rang the importance:
No. 1 importance: Poise & presentation
No. 2 importance: hair
No. 3 importance: clothes that fit your body contour, colour that match, material that fit the occasion
No. 4 importance: appropriate accessories
Gonna work very hard on this
High maintenance women
A senior friend related to me this... men dun like high maintenance women.
Both 'material' and 'emotional'
Men cant stand woman that spend alot of time on physical eg. makeup , shopping. Nor men cant stand those who need alot of attentions-almost every minute that men cant breathe
Forget about the discussion on how men think or like.
As a woman, which type r u?
Before i reflect on myself, like to talk about some women in my social life.
I have seen women who will go 'gaga' simply a porsche *sorry hor i dun even noe how to spell* passed by. 'wow' they shouted. N ppl around looked at them.. **sweat sweat
I have still some women that have super high demand on 'emotional' maintenance. It is very common to hear the aftermath.. that the guy ran away, off the phone, asked to breakup etc
i wonder if there are women who r both high maintenance in term of materials n emotions.
I haev and always a high maintenace in emotions.
Give me monies but dun give me the love i hope to, u dun love me at all.
Give me a hug n look right into my eyes, even if we are jus eating a cheap meal, i melted n promise to love u forever
When i m emotionally down, i hope my guy will give me the 100% concentration. May not be able to be right beside me but.. he made me noe he is tinking of me every minute
but that is too emotionally drained on the male..
Comparatively, i tink i m much better now.. up abit on material maintenance and down alot on emotional reliance. Will still be bothering n upset over 'below expected' concern. Feeling void n shallow on the r'ship when that part is not satisfied. But i m learning to handle n did not break the occasions as often as before.
Both 'material' and 'emotional'
Men cant stand woman that spend alot of time on physical eg. makeup , shopping. Nor men cant stand those who need alot of attentions-almost every minute that men cant breathe
Forget about the discussion on how men think or like.
As a woman, which type r u?
Before i reflect on myself, like to talk about some women in my social life.
I have seen women who will go 'gaga' simply a porsche *sorry hor i dun even noe how to spell* passed by. 'wow' they shouted. N ppl around looked at them.. **sweat sweat
I have still some women that have super high demand on 'emotional' maintenance. It is very common to hear the aftermath.. that the guy ran away, off the phone, asked to breakup etc
i wonder if there are women who r both high maintenance in term of materials n emotions.
I haev and always a high maintenace in emotions.
Give me monies but dun give me the love i hope to, u dun love me at all.
Give me a hug n look right into my eyes, even if we are jus eating a cheap meal, i melted n promise to love u forever
When i m emotionally down, i hope my guy will give me the 100% concentration. May not be able to be right beside me but.. he made me noe he is tinking of me every minute
but that is too emotionally drained on the male..
Comparatively, i tink i m much better now.. up abit on material maintenance and down alot on emotional reliance. Will still be bothering n upset over 'below expected' concern. Feeling void n shallow on the r'ship when that part is not satisfied. But i m learning to handle n did not break the occasions as often as before.
Wednesday, January 21, 2009
In conversation with a person who worked and attained certain level of success
it is time to get serious and check out on 'extraordinary' people whom have battled life obstacles and achieved much.
Tat is what often being brought up.. if u wan to noe success u need to check out how others do. This is not too hard , jus look around..
* recently watched 'trading spouses' in the afternoon. One episode had a rich & educated wife traded with another 'common' woman. The lst one made some wonder to the son of the 'common' family. She brought him to c a surgeon after him telling her that he is aspired to be one. He managed to get face to face to a surgeon n posted questions in mind. The questions he posed were so simple yet important for starter.. Kudos!
It took months and alot of courages and probably some kind of scheme n managed to invite this person for a dinner.
Equipped with a fast beating heart and list of questions in mind, i hopped into the car.
Dinner was sumptous but at intervals i felt choking.. it was a direct n frank talk n probably alot of time is 'talk down' on me.. I tot my vision was blurred.. Nevertheless, courage is great enough to continue to listen n reflect as much as i can understand.
Blaming others and situations were common among the common ones. The ones who determine to success may suck for a short minute and then think of how to get thing back in control. Tis is just too common, can hear or read from books! but how many of us can control frustrations.
Frustratios come from expectations..
N posing expectations on others r so easy. That leads to our frustration and let ppl fool us ard..
Have we pose expectations on ourselves? Being organised and stay compose. We often tend to give good excuse 'that is not possible'. But when we unconsciously or purposely pose expectation on others, did we hear that loud as well?
Out of 10, 8 situations can be controlled if you plan ahead, organise and response strategically. For 2 that may be so unexpected, you can steer it from how determine you r.
This is really true. I have completely forgotten about it.. i used to do that.. i told myself no one or no situation should prohibit me fr getting my education. I wan to be a white collar n doing well n fine like others. I achieved amidst alot of probs. I was afraid of ppl afraid of conversations, but i went ahead and knock on every employment agency i reseached just for interview to make mysefl comfortable with people n tense conversation.
These two years were terrible. I feel into trap of over-thinking. Many things i stopped myself even before putting out first step.. 'i cant', 'i afraid'
i got relationship and work problems and still allowed myself to be soak in others' similar problems. N got myself sink deeper n deeper into depression.
I wasted my time on ppl who r too carefree (probably they already chosen this path) n lead me blindly day in day out.
No i dun blame others. I DUN WAN to blame others
No i dun wan to suck.
I wan to plan ahead. it is so tough. I still have many questions on how to do this n that, ppl ard me cant help or refuse to help me.
Nevermind, 'i m afraid and frightened... wat the hell, just do it', 'whatever you say or do to me, i am still a worthwhile person'
If i dun wan my life, who will want? it's time to be responsible n fair to myself
Tat is what often being brought up.. if u wan to noe success u need to check out how others do. This is not too hard , jus look around..
* recently watched 'trading spouses' in the afternoon. One episode had a rich & educated wife traded with another 'common' woman. The lst one made some wonder to the son of the 'common' family. She brought him to c a surgeon after him telling her that he is aspired to be one. He managed to get face to face to a surgeon n posted questions in mind. The questions he posed were so simple yet important for starter.. Kudos!
It took months and alot of courages and probably some kind of scheme n managed to invite this person for a dinner.
Equipped with a fast beating heart and list of questions in mind, i hopped into the car.
Dinner was sumptous but at intervals i felt choking.. it was a direct n frank talk n probably alot of time is 'talk down' on me.. I tot my vision was blurred.. Nevertheless, courage is great enough to continue to listen n reflect as much as i can understand.
Blaming others and situations were common among the common ones. The ones who determine to success may suck for a short minute and then think of how to get thing back in control. Tis is just too common, can hear or read from books! but how many of us can control frustrations.
Frustratios come from expectations..
N posing expectations on others r so easy. That leads to our frustration and let ppl fool us ard..
Have we pose expectations on ourselves? Being organised and stay compose. We often tend to give good excuse 'that is not possible'. But when we unconsciously or purposely pose expectation on others, did we hear that loud as well?
Out of 10, 8 situations can be controlled if you plan ahead, organise and response strategically. For 2 that may be so unexpected, you can steer it from how determine you r.
This is really true. I have completely forgotten about it.. i used to do that.. i told myself no one or no situation should prohibit me fr getting my education. I wan to be a white collar n doing well n fine like others. I achieved amidst alot of probs. I was afraid of ppl afraid of conversations, but i went ahead and knock on every employment agency i reseached just for interview to make mysefl comfortable with people n tense conversation.
These two years were terrible. I feel into trap of over-thinking. Many things i stopped myself even before putting out first step.. 'i cant', 'i afraid'
i got relationship and work problems and still allowed myself to be soak in others' similar problems. N got myself sink deeper n deeper into depression.
I wasted my time on ppl who r too carefree (probably they already chosen this path) n lead me blindly day in day out.
No i dun blame others. I DUN WAN to blame others
No i dun wan to suck.
I wan to plan ahead. it is so tough. I still have many questions on how to do this n that, ppl ard me cant help or refuse to help me.
Nevermind, 'i m afraid and frightened... wat the hell, just do it', 'whatever you say or do to me, i am still a worthwhile person'
If i dun wan my life, who will want? it's time to be responsible n fair to myself
Monday, January 12, 2009
wa, pierce through heart
黑夜滲透了思念
偷不走微光閃現的千種畫面
我背著傷痛離開
孤單拖著記憶
支離破碎
原以為不會改變
眼淚在臉頰上乾枯失去知覺
我的心掙脫了愛
跟隨著夕陽埋進了海洋
為什麼相愛的人卻又為愛而紛爭
現實的翅膀擾亂了原本幸福的氣氛
我有我的過錯 我有我的疑惑 藏在面對面的折磨背後
為什麼讓愛躲進烏雲密佈的天空 隨著風漂流在外一點一點的散落
慢慢遠離的夢 漸漸冷卻冰封
心痛當初相遇的心動
偷不走微光閃現的千種畫面
我背著傷痛離開
孤單拖著記憶
支離破碎
原以為不會改變
眼淚在臉頰上乾枯失去知覺
我的心掙脫了愛
跟隨著夕陽埋進了海洋
為什麼相愛的人卻又為愛而紛爭
現實的翅膀擾亂了原本幸福的氣氛
我有我的過錯 我有我的疑惑 藏在面對面的折磨背後
為什麼讓愛躲進烏雲密佈的天空 隨著風漂流在外一點一點的散落
慢慢遠離的夢 漸漸冷卻冰封
心痛當初相遇的心動
Saturday, January 10, 2009
Friday, January 9, 2009
keke wat e fish?! e day e gathering stood still
Recently two pax from one of the ex companies wanna to have a gathering.
One of them smsed me that 'since you r so free, you do the coordinating'
*Raise eyebrows.. did i say i wanna have the gathering in the first place? *roll eyes.
Emailed both and then added in one more ex colleage via facebook email.
Told them they are what i have. N apparently they are linked up too. If really needed, i can help with getting contact of two others through one of the friend's friend. But we shoud put in effort together since they are the one who sparkle idea of meeting up.
The gracious lady whom i 'implicated' replied she can get the rest.
Hence we progressed to decide on date n venue.
That original two did not reply.
After sometime, e one who smsed me earlier, let's call him B, wrote back.
* Raise eyebrows!
He wrote aloud it will be more meaningful if it is set toward end of this month which is his bday. N then suggested that we do it at someone place to cut cost. But must note that not at his place
Wah! did i feel the earth shake abit?
Following day, he nudged me on msn (pls note that i have informed him many times that for first msn, do not nudge, it jus so crude but he still do that). N question me how the progress
*hammer on hand alrdy
So i wrote back in the email chain that i have not heard of any reply on date n venue and since B is so keen on his bday bash, we shall await for his bday invitation.
He is soooo panicky n said he can wait lah
Wahahahahah
*hammer crushes the shell?!
At this stage, i m not keen to pursue further. And gave them the two contacts i promised earlier to find for them.
The other guy, T, wrote back n seconded idea of doing it at someone hse n then pointed at that gracious lady. Then he said do not reveal HP number on internet cos may be....... n then suggest to get that two involve in thinkinng of the venue n date but disregarded he now alrdy have their number to contact.
Final stage, i m dropping out of this whole nonsence.
It is so obvious both want conveniences out of others. Want me to coordinate, wan gracious lady to spare her house. N if it is so bad as not to reveal HP on email. I think we should not state the date n time of our gathering. Wat if ppl hack our email n plan to rob us at that time and spot? also it could extend to possibility of not sms becos sms is not 100% foolproof. So there is so many WAT IF * can feel the pierce of my sword or not heehee
Chatted with one of my friends on this case. He also understand where i came from. A gathering is a gathering, a bday celebration is a bday celebration. After not meeting for 10 over years, we would not know how the response like and how we will be reacting to one another. And since B made himself clearly that it is to be held on his bday week, we will have to politically correct to treat or get him a cake rite? But there are other factors. .. we may need to find out who else in the group having bday ard the corner. If not, it is so unforgiving rite? And would ppl really keen to chop money to buy him cake or a treat? it is not about the costs but rather necessary? To him it is meaningful but to one who have not meet him for 10 yrs, does that make sense? Doing it at someone house mean cutting cost for you. Even if potluck, it will still require the host to play more parts. Maybe some will not mind. But they are the one who suggested and too quick to exclude themselve from extending their house. That is really overboard.
O no, who these ppl really r?
Let's keep strictly to facebook pal (o ya, do not ever email again, WATCHOUT!)
One of them smsed me that 'since you r so free, you do the coordinating'
*Raise eyebrows.. did i say i wanna have the gathering in the first place? *roll eyes.
Emailed both and then added in one more ex colleage via facebook email.
Told them they are what i have. N apparently they are linked up too. If really needed, i can help with getting contact of two others through one of the friend's friend. But we shoud put in effort together since they are the one who sparkle idea of meeting up.
The gracious lady whom i 'implicated' replied she can get the rest.
Hence we progressed to decide on date n venue.
That original two did not reply.
After sometime, e one who smsed me earlier, let's call him B, wrote back.
* Raise eyebrows!
He wrote aloud it will be more meaningful if it is set toward end of this month which is his bday. N then suggested that we do it at someone place to cut cost. But must note that not at his place
Wah! did i feel the earth shake abit?
Following day, he nudged me on msn (pls note that i have informed him many times that for first msn, do not nudge, it jus so crude but he still do that). N question me how the progress
*hammer on hand alrdy
So i wrote back in the email chain that i have not heard of any reply on date n venue and since B is so keen on his bday bash, we shall await for his bday invitation.
He is soooo panicky n said he can wait lah
Wahahahahah
*hammer crushes the shell?!
At this stage, i m not keen to pursue further. And gave them the two contacts i promised earlier to find for them.
The other guy, T, wrote back n seconded idea of doing it at someone hse n then pointed at that gracious lady. Then he said do not reveal HP number on internet cos may be....... n then suggest to get that two involve in thinkinng of the venue n date but disregarded he now alrdy have their number to contact.
Final stage, i m dropping out of this whole nonsence.
It is so obvious both want conveniences out of others. Want me to coordinate, wan gracious lady to spare her house. N if it is so bad as not to reveal HP on email. I think we should not state the date n time of our gathering. Wat if ppl hack our email n plan to rob us at that time and spot? also it could extend to possibility of not sms becos sms is not 100% foolproof. So there is so many WAT IF * can feel the pierce of my sword or not heehee
Chatted with one of my friends on this case. He also understand where i came from. A gathering is a gathering, a bday celebration is a bday celebration. After not meeting for 10 over years, we would not know how the response like and how we will be reacting to one another. And since B made himself clearly that it is to be held on his bday week, we will have to politically correct to treat or get him a cake rite? But there are other factors. .. we may need to find out who else in the group having bday ard the corner. If not, it is so unforgiving rite? And would ppl really keen to chop money to buy him cake or a treat? it is not about the costs but rather necessary? To him it is meaningful but to one who have not meet him for 10 yrs, does that make sense? Doing it at someone house mean cutting cost for you. Even if potluck, it will still require the host to play more parts. Maybe some will not mind. But they are the one who suggested and too quick to exclude themselve from extending their house. That is really overboard.
O no, who these ppl really r?
Let's keep strictly to facebook pal (o ya, do not ever email again, WATCHOUT!)
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