熏衣草

熏衣草
熏衣草
是不是只有试验过的人才能闻到
我呼吸
花香在怀中舞蹈
流过了我的汗毛
释放着回忆中的味道
像烟火闪耀
有什么烦恼
有什么好烦恼
拿来燃烧就会轻于鸿毛
有何大不了
不会比呼吸重要
谁说我不能再次微笑
谁说我不能活得更好
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熏衣草熏衣草
能不能把我所有想念都变成拥抱
我想哭天使在枕边看
透泪水在梦中洗澡
掩盖了我的天涯海角
将一切洗掉
有什么烦恼
有什么好烦恼
拿来燃烧就会轻于鸿毛
有何大不了不会比呼吸重要
谁说我不能再次微笑
谁说我不能活得更好
还以为自己无可救药

Like this song eversince watched the movie.

E tune was soothing and it does calm me down many moments.

Like i said, i have no one really bother about what i m going through. Which is common to many also i guess. So there are other ways i used to make myself braver :)

This morning woke up, i feel so unwell. Now with thick jacket.

Ppl keep saying it is very easy for me now to settle the situation. I also think so. But it is not if i ponder further. If my bro would jus do his part and ensure consistency with his contribution to home, i think i will have less worry. The load is getting heavier having that younger bro going to poly and my mum's health is getting weaker. I need to be rational to acknowledge presence of inflation. So i need to increase my contribution. With my mum side having no proper house, i have nowhere to go. If i sign that paper, i would need to give up this HDB. I do not have cash for rental etc. The thing is now, ppl tend to only think that i did not and cant bear to leave him. Pls loh, i long for my freedom from all the demonic acts on me. I liek to have back my dignity ;)

Thinkin of own family also make me feel sad. Do not believe they do not know my situation. But takin easy way out. Being the only degree holder must be deemed as earnign tonnes so i have to subsidy someone's dream. Whr is my dream then? haaa there is so much to pen down so that i will feel better after letting out.

but at this moment, let me hav this song to calm myself down. Things cannot be resolve fast. At end of day, that is still MY PROBLEM.